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2007-05-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

wee~!
finally remembered my password =x
i sort of forgot my pw and user id...so i cant blog for like an eternity....
oh well..mid year exams are just over.
wish and hope everything turns out good...
heart wrenching eh..

ohh yeahh...watched american pie: naked mile last night.
gosh, they ran naked round their campus to "release stress after exams"
i was laughing my head off for that show..
heck yea. that guy eric stifler..couldn't live up to his family name : STIFLER
he's a virgin stifler...like merely impossible.
as far as i could remember of all the stiflers...they are nymphomaniacs. (dont mind the language but hey, they directed the show that way!)
yup. american pie never fails to make one laugh off the seat...even after watching for the third time
american pie wedding still is the very best though.. (x

ohh well yesterday went out with yan jie and clarence.
so fun!!
ate seoul garden..the play that kiap kiap machine.. i tink we put like six dollars worth of money..
then i got the monkey...so cute! i thought those machines only cheat us of our money...
but apparently i got the monkey! ohh weelll....the machine sort of work by itself... maybe its haunted. but who cares..i got the monkey!

i miss going out like four of us= me clarence joyce edwin...like drifting apart lehs.
or maybe its the ''post exam trauma" ...like becos of exams, we dint go out for so long..
haiis remembered asking joyce the othr time..dunno she rmb anots..
whether 4 of us will stay this way even after graduation..
i was livin my own dream cos i thought we'll be lik BFF(bestfriends forever) type..
hais she made me wake up when she say that people change and (i cant rmb wat she say lerrs. LOL! we were chatting at the mrt station bah. cityhall i guess.)
ohh well, bottomline is that we wont always be this way..
i hope that wont be the case...really hope we can go out like just the four of us, even after graduation.
come what may, friendship remains, yea?

mt olevels are near...must work hard!! weets~

ohh yea..must watch that jia you jin shun on ch u every week days at 7pm..so nice..
korean drama but dual sound lahhs..so i only know their names in chinese..
zaixi-ge~ =D so handsome.
ahhems..my ji-hoon oppa still the best~ rain rain~!

..my wallet is evaporating!
i watched like three movies in less than 5 dayys..........
i spent ten dollars on lunchhh...........
(release stress after exmas...not running in naked mile...)
gst increaaseddd to 7%...........
fuck it.

i need ice cream...it ease my stress..
i bought a whole tub of hagen dazs which costed like 12 bucks...durin exam week
hey it was cookies and creme...who wouldnt love that...
everybody LOVES ICE CREAM!
ICE CREAM MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND!!!
i remembered..i dint just eat hagen dazs...i also swallowed down like one traffic light icecream EVERYDAY..
its like an addiction...plus, its so cheap! 60 cents!!!
so i eat them everyday...my big tub of hagen dazs only lasted for 3 days.. cant keep indulging..had to study u know.......if i had an option, i could finish it up in half an hour........yumm..
oohh and im addicted to coffee bean's black iced tea...its the BEST....
must be the caffeine.....

ohh and i was studying biology the other day..my mum was watching discovery channel...
it was about the birth process..
so i decided to watch it for a while..
uncensored..
like usually i watched elephants gave birth..impalas gave birth...wilderbeast , panda ah lahh all the creatures lahh..suddenly , HUMAN..the homosapiens..
i was drinking water when all the water spilled.....it was jaw dropping...
*im a bio student*
it is magnificent to think that that was how i emerged.................
ohh well, say no to premaritial sex (did i spell right? ohh the irony...)
seriously, not worth goin through that painstaking moment when he's not you soulmate..
oohh gosh im not preaching...
yucks.

i've said enough.

2007-04-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

woke up today, whole body aching.
apparently, i 've finished all my homework..
ohh yea, today i saw rain's world tour premiere dvd.
i was smiling to myself in the store.(hiding in the corner of the store of cos)
i sms my mum, she didnt allow me to buy.
haha.
but somehow i managed to talk my mum out of it...persuaded her.
im good at it =)
i walked at the face shop, i hear rain's music, in my bed.
i walked beside the information counter, i hear rain's music again, oh yeah.
im like going insane or something? but really lah, its rain on the stereo.
then sat at coffee bean , opposite our table was two koreans..i recognised the language.
im addicted to tea.tea.tea =)
its pretty sad lah.
i went out with a blue note. i returned with a red note..
yup the dvd is that expensive. now its plainly only one red note in my purse...
not to mention that my allowance gone up to one red note per day.
and my olevel is 400 dollars..equivalent to 40 red notes..
jeez, i should cut down on my expenses..........
i wanna listen to rain........(=
yes i learnt how to write sarang hae in korean language =))

2007-04-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me crying?
would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

2007-03-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

RAIN'S move on
english translation (= so nice! i love jung ji hoon.
can i have him for my birthday? =D

Don't cry for him anymore, girl
You shut your heart, only to wait for someone who is never returning
My eyes has always been on you, no matter when
Until the day you turn back for me, forever, forever.

Move on, oh, move on
It's time to let go
He will not be coming back
Open your heart baby,
Open the heart which you've shut tight

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
No matter until when,
I will take the place of that person and stay by your side
I will always be right by your side instead of that man
I will always be right by your side
Make you the promise of eternity.

This feeling of heart-wrenching pain,
am I not feeling the same pain too?
I dream of seeking out each other with you
The person who has filled out your heart now is not me...
Whenever I think of that, I feel the heart-wrenching pain again

Move on, oh, move on
It's time to let go
He will not be coming back
Move on, oh, move on

Stride past this period of time
Discover my existence secretly in that vast emptiness of your heart
I will always stay by your side, I will never let your feel sad again
So give me your chance....

2007-03-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

Miles apart.
In my dreams, i see you
Still missing you as days go by..
Somehow i wonder if u remember me..
Inside my mind, im drowning in thoughts of you
Never ever gonna forget you..
Going crazy thinking of you..

Yet i didnt let you know of my feelings
Out of the blue, u 're gone..without a trace..
Until the day u come back, i wont let you go.

dumb shit. i can make such a random 'whatever this might be'..and yet i am stuck with my malay essay...i cant make the poem to start off the essay! i dont even know how to start it off!! arrgh!
i cant think. FOCUS! the playstation is calling me...i want to play sims..................ytd night i tlked to clarence on the phone. he convinced me that i can build a two storey house in the game. truth is, i dont think its possible...we played sims til 1 plus plus am? he played on his computer and i play on my ps2. we communicate thru the phone.. its pathetic! i started off with $13000.. how the hell am i suppose to build a BIG house with that small tiny sum of cash?! actually its 20k..but i bought a plot of land for 7k.............dotx. nevertheless, i managed to build the house. but my sims personality suckx. so nobody wants to talk to her. everybody hates her and walk around with a 'frowning smiley' whenever they see my sims. like duh~ she's boring. even i wouldnt wanna b frens with her =x not to mention that the last time my brother controlled aaron aames- my sims, aaron died. my brother was careless enough to let aaron died while cooking. the kitchen caught fire.
oh yeah, speaking of my brother, the other night, we went out. with him, there's always a need to take a cab..no bus, no mrt..plainly cab. trust me, the road was like silent hill. everytime u see a cab, its as rare as seeing a shooting star..so i made him walk to the start of the road...to cut the 'queue' of people waitin for taxis..we cut the queue of this two guys...then a taxi arrive. of cos the smarter ones - my brother and i, got the cab. leaving those two pathetic guys staring at us. TOO BAD! losers!! hahahas. but suay suay when i got to the cab, i dunno why la..coincidentally, i looked towards the left, those two idiots pointed middle finger at us. the taxi was speeding, so i couldnt react. sore losers they are. okay, i admit, i ALWAYS do that to ppl who 'steal' my cab..but i didnt expect to get a taste of my own medicine...its okay, i'll just continue to do what i always do best (=

...the other day i said i wanted sakae sushi, my uncle, unknowingly brought me to mutthu's curry instead. world of a difference.

ytd went vivo with edwin joys and clar...before that went to do hmk with clarence. hais. so stress. how come homework like nvr ending lidat. o levels drawing near...i gotta keep that passion within me to keep burning...

gosh, im still in pyjamas. its like near 4pm? LOL!

2007-03-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

Stars shining bright above you,
night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".
Birds singing in the sycamore tree,
Dream a little dream of me.
Say "nighty-night" and kiss me.
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll missme.
While I'm alone and blue as can be,
dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss,
I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.
dream a little dream of me - michael buble

2007-03-13T01:05:00.000+08:00

woke up fucking early today.
just to get to school.
and then get sent home again.

ms pang wasnt in school.
so cant do the lifescience bacteria cultivating stuff..
haiis.
today really no mood.
i came home put my bag down then go jogging at the jurong park.
of all my whole life, i never go jogging before la.
dunno why just feel lik running.
i walked more than i ran.
cos it was a damn far journey to walk frm home to the park.
ran till my feet blister.
lets just say i got nothing better to do.
sat by the lake. freed my thoughts.

i did my maths homework. attempted to.
so difficult..
wanted to watch that sangdoo show, but no mood.
dont feel lik watching the demand tv zombie fest.
wanted to go eat jap food, but my mum cooked...so hafta eat at home.
my mouth hurts. i jammed the toothbrush into my mouth accidentally..it bled, obviously.
now it freakishly hurts.........
lets see, i did my ss homework.
i couldnt do the geography homework..cos the newpaper did not publish anything about geography!

i want chocolate..
i need chocolates.........
now its 1.37 am. where in the blue hell am i supposed to get chocolates?!!!
*mouth still pain*

yesterday i went shopping.
with my BROTHER.
like first time loh.
its always with our parents. but ytd its just the brother sister outing.
we went frm bugis to suntect(walked) to marina...we wanted to take cab to mustafa centre...
when shopping with my brother, its always cab..its lik as though mrts and buses never existed.
we went frm jurong to bugis by cab..
then frm marina and suntect, there were at least 20 people queueing at the taxi stand
so obviously, being the scheming me, i had to come up with some bright ideas.
we had to be 'imposters'
so i bring him to the oriental hotel and pretend as though we're tourists..
we passed off. the cabbie that drove us to bugis thought we were indonesians..
at the hotel taxi stand there were like 2 people waiting for cab?
well at least it beats queueing up behind 20.
yup. we lied a lot to the cab driver...cant help. he's too gullible and naive!
so we went to mustafa to get the $8 neem oil which is needed for my life science project.
we got home at 11.30

spent more than a hundred?
he bought bermudas for 30, my cap cost 35..more than his bermudas. he paid.
i bought some tidbits worth $6.. his shirts cost another 30 + ..our taxi fare i tink around 30. lol.
he bought bolster for 20.. dunno what other rubbish we buy la..
but it was definitely a fun trip (=

2007-03-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..
se7en quite attractive huh..
but i still love RAIN~
hahas

Se7eN

RAIN

their picture pose somewhat resemble each other..
sometimes when u go certain websites and u type se7en, u can see rain's picture amidst one of them...
lots of websites say they look alike?
yahoo even has their photo side by side...
lots of websites have polls of who dance better.
even MDS has a dance competition with both of them there as well..
rain was the show stopper when he started shaking his butt. =x lol!
both have somewhat small eyes...sexy, yes.
both excellent dancers...irrisistable, yes.
both can sing in korean and japanese..sweet..
both sing and act in dramas.....
but wait. rain's lips sexier! (=
apparently i dont remember a single se7en song..
but i am so indulged with rain's song..

but apparently, se7en also resemble kim jeong hoon (yul) in many ways..
i saw his picture in the prince uniform...he acts in goong S...
i swore i thought i saw yul!!
worse, i couldnt read it , cos it was a chinese magazine...i bought it cos it has rain on cover page..
then when zi qian read it, then i realised thats se7en , not yul...

but they dont look alike in person lah, only still photos...

this photo se7en looks abit like yul..

i like se7en...but i LOVE rain~ (=

2007-03-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

nobody's at home right now. so im dying of boredom.
lets see. today went science centre.
dna stuff.. hais. pretty much boring i must say..
the woman in the lab coat was veri boring.
charmaine and i still have 50 plates of bacteria to cultivate for the competition.
50 plates isnt a small number..................

oh yeah, today pe was great.
ran around the canal.
that was fun..
at least alot better than running around the school, with the staircases and slippery grounds.
Ms wong was like telling us to look at the scenary.
at first i thought it was nice.
then when i come back to my senses, i figures that singapore is 'plastic' most of the time
even the trees are there becos they're grown by humans. the canal isnt a river...thats a CANAL. MAN MADE.
when i turned to the right, there were all the mega sized vehicles and again, MAN MADE ROADS.
i pity us singaporeans. its not everytime that we get to see natural surrounding, natural beauty.
we're all surrounded by concrete walls and are so dependent on machines......
cant believe life w/o technology..pretty much desperate huh?

holiday doesnt seem like holidays at all.
more like one week intensive training or something...
a stay at home study period.......
so little time, so much to do..

now listening to rain's move on~
wee~~

my ears like can detect any slight rhythm of rain's song.
even when the tv's on minimum volume, i still can notice when he's on mtv.
wah.. i 'll chuck my homework in one corner to go sit near the tv~
now my closet is full of rain's photo.
can you believe it? i tore down all my john cena's posters to make way for rain..
wow. my love sort of 'mutate' overnight..like one minute im so in love with john cenna...then poof!
RAIN'S COMING~~~

i watched rain's 'im a cyborg but thats ok' movie the very first day it was released...
it was released early. dunno why..supposed to be 8th march. but it was out on 3rd march.
it was 11.30 at night and i was throwing tantrum at home becos i wanna go..
clarence actually wan to pei me go watch.
then he back out immediately when he found out it was nc16..
nevertheless, i still watched...at 11.30 pm..when jp was nearly closed.....

eee i was so envious when the lead actress kissed rain..so eeew. like the head keep turning!!
rain's my oppa...how can u kiss him??! aahhh!
but i remembered last time the interviewer asked him ' in the movie cyborg u kissed the girl passionately, do you feel anything?' he somewhat answered to the translator something like he felt nothing.
feel like punching the interviewer. that was a stupid and idiotic question....

I LOVE RAIN~ I LOVE RAIN~ JUNG JI HOON, sarang hae (=

2007-02-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

SANG DOO! LET'S GO TO SCHOOL!

HAHAHAS! im addicted to the show liaos!
watched it everyday!
haiis. two more disc then finish liaos.
i still havent watched edwin's pirates of the carribean...
i love RAIN~
just cant get enough.
keep demanding more movies of him.
he kiss the girl in the drama...~waahhh. jealous nia.
the show was very sad..
really. he acts as a 17 yr old student (he so tall lor), then he acted as a gigolo, a father...
then very sad lah the show. of cos i got cry. i cry for almost all shows, esp korean dramas.
that explains the extra black ring around my eye these few days..
cant wait to watch im a cyborg, its ok! haah! it'll be out on 1st march!
i tink 'll be quite nice since its love in a mental hospital. hmm, nvr heard of such things before so its pretty interesting.

just now went to see the seniors take their olevel results.
so scary lahh.
but they faired pretty well (=
cant believe in about a year, i'll be the one taking my results...
mr amran has been pressuring us, A1 A1 A1!!!
still owe him two compo...haiis.
next week, whole week tests!
pathetic huh?
then yesterday clarence go and add tea packet and tissue to my water bottle =S
i added tea powder to his and plastic bag. lols.
disgusting.

haiis. i need help with my physics lahhs..
whr lauren go?
i need tuition!
i still cant believe he told my previous tutor, mattew,that he teaching me lor.
we agreed that he keep this matter frm mattew.
see la, i today call mattew then he say he dont want teach tuition liao cos he busy.
haiis. make me feel more guilty. worse, his bio book still with me =(

die liao lah. how? tuition? sob.

2007-02-04T11:53:00.000+08:00

i have nothin much to say for todae. since the day jus gets started (its now 12.o3. and i just woke up like ten mins ago) i opened the window...from my brother's bedroom, it has the view of a park...a cat sitting in the middle of the park...shitting. and here i am now, trying to eat my breakfast... o k nevermind.

now im trying to watch lets go school sangdoo. obviously bi rain acts in it so i wanna watch.. its quite long ago..but nevertheless, i should watch it.

i have not done neither my english essay nor my malay essay.

let me backtrack. yesterday i went to BREEKS restaurant to eat my dinner with my uncles and my granny and my mummy and brother. ate steak again..even though i ate it in KL last week...couldnt get enough of meat.
day b4 yesterday, it was normal school day, attended lifescience.... on the day before before ytd, thursday lah, i had detention. jess was there, so it was quite enjoyable i must say..
on wednesday went to kranji sec..with joyce. supported badminton team...and from tuesday and beyond, i had been brainwashed because i cant remember a ssingle thing.

yup...i have been in a crappy lifestyle the whole week. i need to make it more useful =p

2007-01-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

RAIN ON ME
ohh my god..
i miss my jung ji hoon!
i wish im still in bukit jalil, still watchin rain's concert.
he's soo sexy.
very handsome. i was lik so near..hee (=
his songs was so nice!
he sang the let me tuch ya. it was the BEST!
he did that 'heart pumpin' move. haha. THE TRADEMARK MOVE!!
i was lik screaming. then he took off the sweater.
got one part he was in the' rain'. his body was so sexy...awww..he come out from a submarine. got one part there was a bed..
the choreography was superb!
his english is so very cute! he really did say in english! so nicee!
ohh my. when he sing im coming its like he's so charming!

then he also got sing in my bed and i do!! ahh i was crazy for that song! and instead of saying goodbye. and many many many more! he didnt sing move on....hais. but nevertheless it was an AWESOME performance!!!
he said "all my girlfriends left me, but all of u stood by my side. you're all my baby" hee. i was going crazy liaox.
out of the more 10 000 people, i was the only one with the signboard (or is it banner?) of his name. hahahs
i was wavin it frantically. ohh my. he saw lehhs. he looked towards my direction then smile and wave. lols. whoever he may be waving to, i was there at least!! LOL! cos in between he got talk mahhs. so i over there..yea.
his moves was really nice. he is like so smooth in his movements. so sleek and fast.. so nice! and he was whispering i do before he sang i do. hee. i went to his concert suddenly can sing in korean. hahah. actually i always sing along to his songs lahhs. i was listening to his songs throughout my 5 hrs or so journey to KL. lmao.
ohh boy i bought so many books and magazines and postcards of his photo while i was there.
got one part of the concert he said " i love you all, i love your faces ...and i love your body. then he laugh" hahahs. so cheeky. he always 'seduce' his fans. now u know why we love him?
he's really my idol! ( i havnt upload his concert photos yet. hee)
part of the concert profit is given to the aids patients - another reson to love rain, he's so kind hearted and generous!
i dreamt of him when i was at the hotel after the concert. last night also i dreamt of him (=
...................now i feel like going korea..

2007-01-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

today's the band concert.
hahahs. reminds me of the american pie band camp.
ok..somewhat everiting seems quite fine lahhs.
i hope it was fine.

well anyways, i waited at caltex with clarence, wait for his parents lahs.
then got one boy run past and slipped in front of us.
oh my gosh.
it was so scary lahhs.
i immediately stood up lols.
but i dont dare to give a helping hand.
hahahs. i fear that i might fall too- cos im really fatigue and sleepy..
clarence helped him out lahhs.
apparently,clarence dressed nice lahhs =)
hahahs. out of topic lerrs.
oh my god. YUSOF ISHAK lost 15 - 0 to hyss.
COOL! go hua yi~ BADMINTON!
heys my best friend in badminton team and my daddy win-win oso. JO! must support too! (x

my throat was like yelling for SOS throughout the whole concert...
oh heyy. i spotted clarence in the crowd whilst i was on stage.
and i saw hafizah and olivia...!! and alot more people. hee.
cant spot mr ong though.
beginning of the concert was pretty scary. but when i spotted all my beloved friends,
it actually boost the confidence lahhs. but i doubt the people understand what the hell
me and fikri were talking about- the script was really lengthy!

aniways today's maths test was pretty demoralising.......................literally.
and my malay class- i wasnt in class. mr amran asked azmeer to go seacrh for all the DECEMBER babies
and he called me along. so basically we walked the whole school...
then after school still need to settle some stuff with mr amran about monday's assembly...

woo!
now finally i can get a good night sleep!
where's my smelly pillow................wee~

2007-01-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

physics test was super duper tough.
eewws.
aniwaes. i tried my very best and did my very best!

wooHoo! rain's concert in 2 more days!
cant wait!

okayys..this is rain's picture. from the BACK!

wheehee. my seat is vip seat de.
i MUST see biRAIN upfront! MUST be near!

lalalalas~
tmr issh the band concert. i'll be the emcee.
oh gosh. hope everything's smooth sailing.
just recovered from flu the othr day.

-im such a muti tasker. i can finish up my experiments and take my own pictures in the lab at the same time!

2007-01-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmm. let me see. today, there's nothing much.
as usual, the everyday shitty routine. go to school blah blah.
got caught for not having thermometer...
worse, that SOMEBODY kicked the soccer ball and hit directly at my knee.
what a pleasant surprise! i shan't elaborate what happens after that
aniways , today didnt go for school's assembly.. cos got that 'bonding' stuff.
dont feel much bond though. =D
and i did a serious mistake with my malay assignment. something i wrote about changing of hormones.............. DUHH
i received my finalised script. so guess i'll be rehearsing real soon.
nerve wrecking....
RAIN RAIN! SAW HIM LOTS OF TIME ON THE NEWS TODAY!!!!!!
i love bi! (pronounced as 'bee')
rain, go rain. its raining its raining...
Rain is coming down through the rooftop! =)
i sort of memorised the lines of the im coming song..its just natural 'memory stored'
after singing it like everyday...before school..after school...doing homework....

WITH RESPECT TO THE 'HYSS-student'(person who tagged...) :
ok lahhs, whoever in the blue hell u might be...
i doubt u're a rain fan anyway. dont expect you to be.
i understand that with help of the computer graphics, photos can be altered in various manner -which u claimed that rain's abs were 'painted'?
then how do you explain his abs when he lifted his shirt (flasher =] nvm, he's hot)
his abs are still nice..he still look macho..same thing goes for his music videos..
can computer tech stuff do that? especially those live performances like in madison square garden...
anyways, its not just his nice height and sexy abs that make him popular..
he can dance and sing well...in many languages.
though his english isnt perfect, at least he still is able to speak english abit. he sang in japanese and chinese as well.
he is my idol. and there are many more reasons why i adore him...not just for the macho-ness. lols.
he's a mega star in my eyes. and to more than 7000 singaporeans who went for his concert....
aza aza fighting! GO RAIN! =)

2007-01-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

omg. i love RAIN!
jung ji hoon!
today he's performing at the singapore indoor stadium!
six more days to his concert in KL.
i cant waiit!
hahahs. i bet the crowd is anticipating it as much as i am.
lols. cant wait! really!
27.01.07!

raiin!

2007-01-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

180107- first time i saw rain in person!
so near!
yepps. i went airport at 11pm just to see him. flight KE 641 alights at 11.54
i was lik shouting!!!
ahh!
he's so handsome in person!
his complexion was soooo nice!
his hair was alot nicer!! =)
reali!
he smiled. omg. so captivating! mesmerizing. hahhahas
i love him!!!
the moment he stepped into the car i broke into tears.
joy but at the same time unbelievable and sad that it was just a few seconds...
its ok! i'll see him again soon!
tmr his concert in singapore.
i'll see him soon. haha! get wht i mean? nevermind!
i know i'll see him!

2007-01-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

argghhh..
i wann go see rain!!
jung ji-hoon!!
i MUST go changi airport. lols

aiiya. knee paiin!
realli pain! cannot bend!!
today got the bonding camp...
the games veri fun lahhs.
but the captain ball veri scary.
i hate ball games.
i get traumatised!
the interview thingy rubbishstickk lahhs.
its boring!
the woman dunno how to entertain the class de.
she speak so soft.
can barely hear..

ooh ytd we had that dinner etiquette.
it was pretty interesting..
lols. but edwin called me up to complain about how down graded the food was.
literally.
i wanted tenderloin steak or something poshy..
like the wedges was stupid.
the aircon was cold so the wedges got cold and untasty!
they should've used mashed potato instead.
its healthier too.
and edwin claimed there's tiramisu?
so small?
a perfect tiramisu should've brandy!
other than that, everything else was nice!

i've yet to complete that neem plant research..............tmr stil haf to meet clarence..do maths? haiis!

i wannt to go eat liaos!
starving!

obsessed over RAIN!

2007-01-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TENG SEAN!

hahaas.
its 2oO7 already!
time flies.
im half high.
i onli drank that mixed wine nite..
my eyeliner so thick black. my lips so bloody red.
i miss someone so bad that i feel like my heart's bleeding ,
yet the blood cant be seen, sorrow overcomes me.
i wanted to go countdown..but i didnt.
decided to spend new year with my mum..so we went out for dinner.
at this steak house..?
the tenderloin steak was nice. its medium well..
my mum ate mixed grill.
took train home..
hahahs, got one guy on the train very cute de =)
realli reali.
watched ch 5..got that countdown at vivo..
julian hee veri cute hor,
he and that jade seah definitely will look cute as couple..(sheesh *envy* )

happy new year! really hope this year will be a blast. hope everything goes perfectly the way i want it to =)

2006-12-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

hee.
went je today.
pretty stupid.
bought new shampoo =S
that asience...always come out on tv de.
okayys. im one of those fools who gets fooled by propaganda on tv.
aniwaes, i saw rain on the magazine cover. so electrifying =p
caught my eye from afar.
hee. he is so hot.=)

haiis. my dear bi, although i like u so very very much, i cant buy the tickets to ur concert...
i doubt i can cough up $888. besides, olevels coming. can only chase rain after olevels =))

ohh yea, that dylan guo..he acted in this show called black night or something..
dunno lahhs. i saw it on the cable tv book..
its a horror flick! =) cant wait to see it.

speaking of horror flick,i watched this show called see no evil..i rented the dvd..

it was super scary. i was lik screaming throughout the movie.
its weird though, usually see Kane wrestling on wwe, he killed no one.
like in this movie, he killed almost everyone and dig their eyes out. GROSS.

ohh yea, i was so disappointed ytd.
i watched wwe, i just realised that matt hardy was on raw and jeff on smackdown...
now whats up with that?
and hurricane has changed image..
john cena is still veri macho(=
i noticed that chris jericho is 'MIA' (missing in action)
dudley boys are over at TNA, ddp at TNA. even that Christian Cage and rhyno is on TNA.
kurt angle? he moved to TNA too? ohh man.. its so sadd....
TNA's ring is 8 sided(or 6?) while wwe is 4 sides...
even the referree moved over to TNA frm wwe..
i suppose TNA is slightly more gory since more blood is present. lol.

soccer didnt let me down. =)
cristiano ronaldo scored ytd. lol. watched on ESPN channel.

time may bring us apart, but friendships never break__♥

sheesh. jimmy is so tall! x) or maybe cos we're short.

aniwaeys tmr is hafizah burfday. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
new year's eve will be sean's birthday =]

2006-12-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

wee~
ytd christmas!!
went to downtown east?
the temp was just nice. not too sunny yet not raining!
wohhoo~!
suppose to be 4n1 de chalet. but joyce and me went. lols
ohh we went escape.
see, joyce, told ya, im a pro at wearing skirt!
i can wear skirt while on the rides lehh!
my skirt didnt fly!! =))
i realise sometin..i keep typing exclaimation marks...
hyperactive..just drank iced lemon tea...wanted to add whiskey..but my brother purposely tighten the bottle cap =(
hee.at e chalet win-win gv me and joyce beer. then too bitter, so nv drink.
another vodka tastes lik medicine!
bacardi breezer was nice!!! but oni drank little =( cos win-win daddy dont allow.
naggy daddy! =x
sheesh.
hee. today went to jp library do project?
was late cos must send granny to hosp checkup.
the taxi driver speak so loudly.. gimme headache lahhs.
i was like almost gonna throw tantrum=x
ohh yea, today when i woke up
my jaw hurts..donno why.
sickening lahhs.
now still pain =(

2006-12-25T03:11:00.000+08:00

lala!
todae went orchard!
just now just came back..around 2 am. lols
hohoho. MERRY CHRISTMAS!
yeshh. we all went thr for xmas countdown.
there's around 9 of us?
me and qian and the othrs r guys =x
all girls pangseh, dont wann 2 come along.
oh my god. we all walked so much lo.
all the foam spraying.. =D
at first was fun, but when you're stuck in a crowd, oh no, its not fun at all.
the foam smells toxic =x
hahahas.
i wore white shoe.
it ended up black with footprints on. lols
my face was soapy =D
wahahahhas. fun lahhs. mie first time go christmas countdown lehhs.
haha.
then on our way hme, very funny lahhs.
kawei reali very funny.
made me and qian laugh so much. lols
now veri sleepy lerrs. 3.26 am liaos.
tmr(oh wait, its today) still maybe meetin joyce and win-win. BBQ!! =)
haiis. im so hungry, i can eat a horse.
eeews. sounds disgusting!

aniwaes merry xmas and happy new year to all! (=

oh mie gosh. imagine santa comin singapore with shaved beard, durian breath and wearing batik clothings...
rudolph will be in north pole so santa will hafta take cab to deliver presents, gosh, midnight charge is sure to burn a hole in his pocket. so dont blame santa if you dint get any prezzies =)

31st dec -> teng sean burfday =))

2006-12-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

todae went orchard =)
joyce nagged at me, lol.
sorry we dint go suntect =x
finally talked to edwin.
dunno how long ago was the last time we talked. lols

lalalas. took bus frm lakeside.
then i saw this cab with the words ' i love james'
diaos. i was lik gonna laugh. =.=
okok. im insane.
aniwaes todae i saw tat guy..
i met him at the *scape aft the concert. lols. took pic wit him. =D
i swore it was him!
ytd oso i tinkk i saw him, but im not so sure. lols. at je?
its lik so easy to spot him in a crowd lahhs.
haiis. wish i'd knew his name =(
is he a pr? gosh. i tink i haf a crush on him. SHUT UP IRA.
ignore my crappy talk.

sheesh. bought 'my girl' dvd. $39.90.
cos tat lee dong wook veri shuai. *hee*

of course rain is still the best lahhs =)

rain is like so hot (=

jeez. i saw this guy, called won bin? quite cute lehhs.
but dunno wat show he act >.<

hee. i realised i spent more that 100 bucks on dvds wors. all the korean and outsiders 1 and2
lol. close to 200 bucks liaos.
must save money!

2006-12-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

TADAA! pictures uploaded lerrs.
but very few. haahahs.
okayys. this one is at white sands

me and qian at the chalet

yan jie and me. lols.

okayys. this is so not clear. the most bottom is steven. then yan jie. at the most top is reuben =.= guys.

yupps. now is lime sonic bang. stil haf many more pictures..mazni havent send to me. lols
this is hady. sorry peeps. i was at 3rd row. w'dya expect...

jonathan is super hyper handsome. tats why my hands went shaky and the pic is extremely blur. lols

he is sooo cute~!

friends forever~ love y'all!

me and maz!

damn...i missed out jimmy's photo. he's so hot lahhs. mazni!!! hurry upload! i wannt sam's photo!!!!!

i wannt that song te amo. but i dunno who's the singer -.-"
whhoooo. watched rain on mtv today. he's like so adorable! cute+hot!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... i cant go to his concert...
planned to pon school to go changi airport. lols.

okayys. seeya. will upload the lime sonic bang lahhs.

2006-12-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

went to lime sonic bang again!
woohoo! two whole nights partying!
awesome!
saw loser and stars dont fall totally rawk the house!
thr's this blonde guy...hahahhas. ok not sam.
ohh yea. sam seems to be getting hotter, yea?
yea that blonde guy i was referring to.
he so cute lah.
he came out to get the stuf ready. and was lik takin pics?
and i was lik ohh damn the blonde guy is cute!
whahahas. i managed to get a picture wit him. so hot.
lik he's so near lah. wahh... suddenly im in love with a guy i dont even know his name.
kidding kidding. gues his friends with em?
ahh. all of them were lik soooo uber hot lahhs.

tmr class chalet!!! i have yet to pack my stuf!
ooh. my . i haf like shouted my lungs out at the concert.
lik sorta dancing and headbang stuf lik that.
jumping! yes! JUMP!!!!
whoa. ENERGETIC...
wahahahahas. cant wait fer next year's lime sonic bang. so hot.
btw, did i mention that we (me, maz, fizah, aidah and ain) managed to get to the front row?
yea. so hot rite?

i gues today's party was alot nicer lahhs.
ytd, futon dint quite get my nerves tingling. neither did west grand boulevard....
but romin was uber hot... but the mosh kinda spoil my mood..
today stars dont fall and saw loser. they're like the hottest amongst the HOT.
i loved them since forever?
lols. saw loser used to be called pug jelly?
they performed at avril's concert on 2nd april 2004..
did i get the date rite?
yea. and i was lik goin wild whenever those guys performed.
oohh man. cant believe im home already!!!!!!!!

lime sonic bang

2006-12-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

woOts. baq frm lime sonic bang!

fizah, love ya babe. thx for gg thr wit me!

wahahahs. i felt so alive and rejuvenated.
lik i thot i was sick. then aft e concert i was fully recovered! yay!
last yr maz was oso down wit fever. the went to lime sonic bang and apparently she recovered? LOLS.

jonathan HOT!
reali!
ohh my god. and romin was so awesome.
they rawk the house man!
that guy was an albino?
but he sure knows how to make ppl go wild.
like the whole crowd was lik jumpin ard lik mad.
and dancin, headbang?
then suddenly this bunch of shit-ass punks started moshing.
FUCK IT MAN. they pushed ard real hard.
and stepped on my feet. eergh. i was lik pushin those girls.
literally. the guy beside me lik wanted to punch.
lek ar. but i seriously think its dangerous.
u wanna mosh go to some gig and create ur mosh pit thr.
these types of outdoor concerts are no place to mosh.
and we were lik jumpin round wen tis mascot came out and sprayed us wit water.
whoa. we were lik soaked. and my mascara+eyeshadow+eyeliner sort of went to my eyes. owww..

we were lik frm the back..then moved to the third row. then to lik nearly the first row. cool huh?
jonathan so handsome lahhs.
hady. oh my god. lik so near. lol. so cute!
but hady sombong ah. senyum pun tak. disappointed sia.
took some pic. bt confirm cnt see one lahhs. tmr then maybe tak photos bahs.

and thr's this band called strike force?
i tink the guy at the end looks kinda cute(=
i tot its some retard band.
then i saw how they 'played' with the drum.
thr were like water and lights on the drums?
kinda cool rite?
of cos the water was lik all over...
futon was kinda disappointing.
but tmr thr's SAW LOSERS AND STARS DONT FALL!!
ahhh. im so gonna be thr!

*ohh my god. some guy jus said that he's awaes faithful to me. and that he'd wait for me?
bla bla blaa. i've had enough lahhs. my heart's not here. somebody stole it and ran far far away.
apparently, i've not mentioned anitin abt my stolen heart to anybody at all. its a secret!*

okayys baq to topic! weets. my leg went numb when i saw hady n jon lahhs.
lik sorta haf a 'crush' on em. lols.
hady's voice.....POWER!

ehhs. wat the fuck. reuben said i shud change my music? lols. ben, go F urself lahhs.

OHH MAN. IM UnDERAGE!
i wanna go zouk out...
bt my brother says its boring?
ohh damn. and i'll miss out on foam parties at the end of the year? shit.
why cant i be in nyc? its alot better nia.

okayys. enough crapping.
i wann watch you, me and dupree (= owen wilson's acting.
it says on the cd : nc 16 .sexual humour?
damn. who cares. bet it cant be better than american pie wedding

goong 2

2006-12-09T16:47:00.000+08:00

i am here to declare tat im down with flu.
lols. keep sneezing.
the best thing is tmr mayb gg lime sonic bang at *scape
then the day aft tmr got class chalet.
wwee. im so gonna fall sick.
and im unhappy tat goong2 is changing cast.

so sickening. realli. im super unhappy! get joo ji hoon and kim jeong hoon and the rest to act lahhs. its stupid if the casts r diffrnt. beats the purpose of makin part 2..
part 2 seems more lik horror movie sia.

see how cute part one is..
im reali disappointed...
and im sure tons of ppl out thr r disappointed too! arrgh!

orchard

2006-12-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

wahh. on 9th gOt lime sOnic baNg wors.
mus take caRe of vOice lia.
after must shout!!
hahahs. =))

tOdae went oRchard lorrs.
then lik suppose to mit edwin
at 7 lo. then i 7pm stil at hOme. lols
kena scold lia.
watever lahhs..
hahas.

then todae my aunt n cousin come my hous. veri miss them lo
lik i treat my cousin as like my own sister liaos.
fridae got dinner appointment.
yays. can eat seafood!

lalas~ ytd quarrel wit bus driver wors.
omg. i dint knoe i become so hot tempered.
i was lik yellin at him lo. apparently he shut up. cos my mum paid up.
worse. the bus was lik so full.
i spilled out alot which i shudnt say. lols.

then ytd made fruit juice.
smoke came out of the machine! lols.

yeahhs. almost finish hmk liaos.
left wit all the projects.
ohh shitt. i left of mt hmk =x lalas.

christmas seemed lonely w/o u.
the thought of u forgettin me in 4 yrs time makes me wanna break down.
__missin u wherever u may go..

upfrontmodels

2006-12-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

hahhahahs
i know this sounds stupid.
but i went to www.upfrontmodels.com
ok..my intention was to find my cousin's pic.
oH MY GOSH. the guys are lik so hawt.
like reali...reali.
i mean some of those commercial males were not that bad lahs.
jason and kenji are not bad.
cos i saw kenji's pic in the newspaper today.
yeahs. kinda cute i must say.
omg. but when i click male models they are uber hot.
literally.
like i dun like those pretty face ones.
reali i dont. seriously dont.
i like those with bad boy looks.
then thers' this guy called vinicius?
ohh myy... heart throb sia.
i want a boyfriend that looks like him!! =x *shut up*
jason p is veri charming. sexy.
omg. and the best part of the story is that i spotted jonathan!
weeWEETS! hahahs. he look bloody innocent in his recent pics.
but his latest one seems quite hot.. hmm i dint notice that he has sexy lips. LOLS!

okay okay. i'd better shut up and go to sleep.
adios!

outsiders twoO

2006-12-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

hmm. todae got do homework. guai =)

omg. i watched outsiders 2 last episode..
so disappointed!!
omg..that ah lea died.
actually yu hao wanted to shoot him, then his sister wants to shoot ah hao. then that ah lea go cover ah hao.
i guess its like that..
its so sad lahhs.
shot in the heart summore.
of cos i dun understand what his last words were...
eee. why the director like this one?
the show lik veri bad like dat.
one by one all the shuai ges kena killed.
yu hao died kena stab. then this ah lea died kena shot.
and i thot that nerd who wanted to be a gangster was quite cute lahhs.
the asthma guy. lols.forgot his name! oso died, kena bang down by van!
stupid lahhs. i wann watch how ah bao got killed!! i demand of it! Lols.

ehhs. aniwaes still havent get balsam seeds =.=
i cant find it!!
sebastian told me at tang dynasty thr got plant nursery..
got mehhs???
i went to jp de ntuc searched the whole rack of seeds. yet no balsam.
stupid lahs. damn seeds.
HAVE TO FIND!
aiyo. wait for sebast bring me oso dunno when.
hahahs. i havent grow the sweet basil yet!
i wanna grow chilli padi!
i see the neighbour grow veri nice so i oso wann grow. =p

and my brother claimed that i look stingy.
he say that when i grow up i'll be very stingy.
got mehhs?! are aries ppl stingy?
i admit that i thrifty..but at the same time, spending money is part of my hobby.......
but i wont grow up to be stingy lahhs...
i'll prove him wrong.
yea. i will...im veri kind hearted wors =x
ehehs i plan to migrate once i get the chance.
yep. must bring my family along...cant wait!
wee~
reali hope my dream will come true wors =)

outsiders

2006-11-30T02:27:00.000+08:00

wahahhahas.
yipee! i bought outsiders one and two lerrs. FINALLY.
oohh like hell i searched for it.
from jw to je..
finally found it at jp (=
but honestly, like its no subs lahhs.
apparently, when i concentrate, i seem to understand the storyline.
hahahas. can watch yu da ge =x
bleahs. that ah lea oso not bad lookin lehhs.
i dunno his name lahhs. sounds abit like that. yeps. anihow type..
not bad not bad. the guys in this show are all not bad lookin..so worth watchn.
hahas. apparently, its like 2 yrs ago =.=. NEVERMIND.
omg. its like burning a hole in the pocket u noe...
buying two sets of cds at once.
haiis. can feel the heart paiin when parting wit the money..

now i feel like eatin tic tac..
my brother buy for me, but its lemon flavor..i wann orange...
aiya nvm lahhs. must appreaciate.
hahhs. he awaes gimme face >.<

omg..school homewerk like super many.
its lik an endless pile sia.
PATHETIC =(
why does christmas seem to arrive so early this year?
haiis. i dunn wann lahhs. after come new years' eve must pack school bag lerrs.
beri the xin ku u noe. must go sch.
haiis.
ohh yahh, teng sean burfday. omg. its like so near..
haiis. oso like no use, message over msn?

ohh yes. i bought eyeliner =)) wee~

nearing 3am lerrs. i've been sleepin 5am everyday.
today should sleep early! lols. 3 am early lahhs.....

full hse

2006-11-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

todayy actualli supposed to go out wit my grandma..
half way thru the journey she cancel. cos raining.
haiis. then go westmall..
waahh.see shuai ges =x lalalalas. kidding.
but reali got one guy on the bus. wahh. drop dead gorgeous nias.
REALLY. he's in sch uniform lehhs.
i wann transfer out of hua yi lerrs! hahahs.
his hair oso beri nice.
ehhs. then todayy i bought full house the vcd lehhs! wee~
rainn look so cute in the last episode!
haiiss. tmr nid go skoOl for life science...
wahh. ytd woke up early do hmk. yeah. guai kia rite?
then the whole day play ps2..
i completed the game spyro in 4 days..
now im playin this game called ape escape! muaahahhaa. lame can.
stoopid monkeys. they steal my net and catch me instead.
ohh yea today my aunt come my hous.
i dint wanna open the door. tot its some sales person or smth..
and i was puttin on nail polishh, watchn full hse and my tshirt koyak lahhs..
then she cal my hp. no choice. hafta open door. ehhs.

haiis. i wann go eat liaos..
feel lik eatin strawberries and whipped cream...
or maybe strawberry milkshake.. ohh..im lazy go shopp lahhs. haiis..pathetic
i wann flowers! xD

outsider twoo playin on ch 56 wors.
weets! ~ i wann subscribe the channel.lols~
yuhao. ah hao. YU DA GE~ hahahas. (=
*ahems. im stil disappointed that he acted in the white robe of love =(

siao siao

2006-11-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

ahh. forgot to say. the kittens sent to spca lerrs.
cos they too difficult to handle. veri noisy. scared neighbours complain..
aiya. i lazy upload photo nia. mus waiit my brother off day..then can transfer photo to com..
veri miss them lerrs.

ehhs. aniwaes. hhahas. this quite embarrassing..
durin first day of camp, sad to say, since females are the majority, the toilets are flooded(with humans..ok my sentence seems wrong)...and apparently, guys toilet beside it is like so quiet.
so me charm and miao go peep see whether got anybody.
hahhas. then we rush in. diaos.
omg. the guys toilet inmy sch so cheapskate.
everitin oso spoil.. wakao. the flush majority spoil, doors majority lock gone case, even the shower head, oni 2 out of five is in gd condition..and the tiles lik droppin off..
so eeeergh.
then suddenly heard a whole grp of guys comin lerrs. lols.
at first we were reluctant to go off.. but they outnumber lerrs. so no choice. we hafta leave the toilet.
how pathetic!
hahhas. aniwaes i've awaes been curious about how the guys toilet 'bowl' gets flushed.
so we sort of 'test' to flush.lols. veri funny. idiotic lahhs.
i reali feel that the toilet needs to be repaired. its like 'malfunctioning'...the water like splurt all over when flush lahhs. reali reali. needs to be reapaired!

life sci camp

2006-11-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

back home from camp lerrs.
so bloodily tired..zZz
omg. and the nite b4 camp i oni slept ard 2 and a half hr lo.
cos watch youtube-fullhouse.
later watchn last ep le wors. cant wait.

aniwaes the camp was pretty fun.
we went to this veggie+herb farm in lim chu kang area..
so suayy it was rainin so cant see lavender. sad right?
then i wanted to but this wester herb...its a plant lahhs.
called Dill. but then i left money in classrm..
so nv buy lo. the plants thr v cheap lei.
but no balsam! how disappointing!
then know alot of plants and herbs and eat alot of uncooked veggie..
cant believe george eat that fish smelling herb. eews.
and potato chips bad for health. contains cottonseed oil. cause infertility.LOLS
ok lahhs. then we got some 'free gifts' like veggies.....diaos.

then got go yakult the manufacturing place...aka factory. lols.
get free yakult of cos..
singapore yakult is alot bigger than othr country......
then see how the bacteria and stuff lik dat...see the mould of the yakult bottles.
and the fermentation process...lik quite eews lehhs. dint know that was how it was made...

at nite i slept in the eclub classrm thr lahhs.
chat wit qian until lik 1am plus den slp..
cant believe i fell aslp so early...
the floor was hard. the pillow, im dependent on the bag, the BULKY bag.
the weather is so cold..so nice...

yea..then today 2nd day camp wors.
we go watch dvd in classrm.
cos campfire cancel since its raining..
watch initial d ahhs..
hahahs. then saw edison chen in the movie..
i watched it in cinema lerrs..
long time ago, wit alex ahs..cant rmb. we went one bigBIG grp.
wahh den saw edison. me and qian like ogling at the screen lohhs.
soo charming, cute, aiya just feel like grabbin him out of screen lahhs.
then mrs chan come in n scold us..nv ask permission...stuf lik tat.
haiis. then haf to turn off liaos. so sad riite?

ohh yea aniwaes we all got do candles ahhs.
i nv do yoghurt..do b4 lerrs.
the candle veri cute one lohhs.
but i veri sad at the end of the lesson.
everione de candle so nice.
mine so ugly.
veri disappointing...
billy one v nice lo.
haiis, he keep sayin his nice then i lik feel more small. lols.
lik how i wish my candle wud turn out like his!
not fair!
but jus now oso got adam khoo wrkshp.
must learn! think positively!

aniwaes im veri contented with the camp food. i think the food is pretty nice =)
a whole lot lot lot nicer than canteen food! (= so reali ebjoyed my stay

new blogskinn.

2006-11-19T16:29:00.000+08:00

wahahhas. so long never update!
changed the blogskin agaiin. haiis. siian.
cant be bothered with the design lahhs..

keep sleepin late watchn full house on youtube.
hahhas. keep watchn korean drama.
now i picked up a few words lerrs =)
LOLs. the show beri nice.
at first veri funi. then now like sentimental lo.
the guy quite good looking lahhs. his name is rain?
then i tink the girl is super pretty.

ohh aniwaes. alex found four baby cats (kittens?)
like literally baby lohhs. so super tiny.
then dunno how to take care give me.
i got like one cute one...veri quiet.
the smallest kitten so noisy. tak boleh tahan.
when at first i see them, still dunno how to shit.
now they shit so many. smelly lohhs.
hafta buy all the cat milk...milk bottle....so ex.
now got alarm clock lerrs. 11 o'clock they'll meooww. so loud...
i dunno how to feed them lorrs...i use the bottle then the milk spill on the head. alamak.
apparently, my brother did a better job =(

haiis. tomoro lifescience camp?
oh my goodness.
i oni realised it today.
damn.
im so unprepared.....
haiis!
now hafta go boro the sleepin bag frm mazni again.
veri paiseh lohhs. but reali no time buy lerrs..haiis.

outsiders

2006-11-12T17:32:00.000+08:00

aiya. today watched outsiders finished lerrs.
so SAD!!!!!!!
arrggghh...how can lidat?! the ending suxx!
oh my god! yu hao died?! why??
i still dont get it...why tat xiong ge go and betray them..
its reali so sad lorrs..then ah hao kena stab. wah lao. reali sad man.
i was lik crying. lols. hiding my face frm my mum. cos veri paiisehh.
but reali veri sad lorrs. i was convincing myself tat
he wud survive. then that shan zi go and shout to xiao yen zi 'he's dead already lah!'
lols. then i reali believe he die lorrs. i thot he oni severely injured..
damn. he shud've killed tat ah bao lorrs. stupid.
i dunno how i managed to understand the story w/o subtitle. lols.
youtube oni certain ep got sub lorrs. haiis. so sad lahhs the story..
now mus go youtube search for outsiders 2. then my brother keep convincing
me to go and watch young and dangerous. say those gangsters really pai.
diaos =.= maybe i shud try watching..
but i must say the outsiders realli nice show lahhs. veri sad.
but the fighting not veri gd =x
that yu hao reali shuai lorrs. wahh. like those type of looks veri difficult to find in singapore =(
haiis. today stay at home alone. guai kia lorrs.
then tmr dunno whether go out anots...
school's out..but stil veri stressed lo. olevels next year. haiis

siloso beach

2006-11-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

bla blaa
today went sentosa lorrs.
FAMILY DAY!
got free entree mahs
yupss.
fun lahhs =)
took alot alot of photos.
then go the musical fountain.
btw, the free food suxx
BIG TIME.
then ate at the delifrance de.
it was egg sandwich..
i still cant deceive myself into believing that its tuna.
my god. doesnt look like tuna.
and certainly doesnt taste like tuna.
bleahs. first time we all 4 go sentosa lohhs.
usually go palawan.
diaos. joyce dropped edwin's mp4. OH-HOR!
whahahahahs.
joyce u bad la, the balloon burst of cos i shout mahhs.
then still tease me =X paiisehh lohhs
then clarence lee. bought alcohol.
wat a surprise. he bought spooky. -.-
shud've bought bacardi breezer..but nvm its still nite. yeahhs.
taste quite ok lahhs. then so fast his face turn red. song bo! dunno wheter he drunk anots lehhs
the disco thingy was disastrous.
nobody's in sight...not even a disco. bleahs. nonsense.
then i swore something white hit my leg on the bus!!
...i still believe that its either edwin's leg or clarence bahhs...although they denied.........
hit twice summore. areadi so sandy. make me shout. hmph.
then on the bus got one bigBIG fly! its horrendous!!!
so huge!! disgusting sia..
made me and joyce scream thru out the trip...
then the girl beside still wann take picture =.="
im like- 'wat the hell the kid's tryin to do man?!!' insane!
but today someone bad mood wors. feel veri veri bad.....haiis.
other than that, everythin else ent well =0

vivo

2006-11-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

blahs.
my rotting blog.
so long neber update.
today went vivo with qian and charmaine =))
lols. veri funni todae.
mr razak horn the car. cos i tuck out =x
hehee.
yea. then after sku we go vivo...
eat at ljs. then go watch grudge 2.
actuali wanted to watch the material girls.
then for charm sake me n qian decided to watch grudge
hahahs. see qian n me so kind =)
charm veri funni de.
watch horror movie she keep giggling.
the show got edison chen lehhs! OH MY GOD!
wen he appeared lik the theatre goes' waaa so handsome'
diaos. but im so disappointed with the director...
edison(in the show he's called eason) died lohhs.
eeeeeeee...how can lidat?!!
wee~then got eat the ben and jerry's cookie dough ice cream. yumm =)
then i got buy the banana frm the action city =))) hahahs
so CUTE! peel peel peel!
hehehe. i wann watch the outsiders lerrs.
addicted to that show sia.
its super nice lo =D
the yu hao beri the cute wors.
hahahs. it would be nice if can pull him out of the tv =X
realli lohhs. hahahs. ohh my..

2006-10-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

hahahahhas.
i bought CRAB!
cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehe.
got two. one for 3 dollars.
one called KRUSTY. the other MOMO.
lols

aiiya.
i still dunno the title of the 3rd song of the goong.
the last episode..when cai jing chased shin.
so funny, in korean, her name not caijing. its chae kyung.
the lu is yul. and xiolin is hyo-rin.
i like the hyo-rin. v pretty wors.

haiis. jus now got holiday supp class.
i keep eatin durin maths.
must keep awake!
then i eat the soursour sweet.
oooo.

hmm. as usual. i was forced to wake up wen i was hvin my nap
go jp.. drank the hot chocolate at mc cafe.
then now very siian.
feel lik playin ps..
ohh. aniwaes i bought the fresh milk from jp super market..
it says its a 'product of singapore'
so i decided to try.
its sweet lahhs.
but not as creamy as i thought it shld be.
why ahhs? are there any possible reasons?
lik the diet of the cow or what?
im a milk-freak. so i reali hope to find out more.lols

2006-10-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

lalalas.
lee shin rawkx =)) <3
wee~
addicted to the show.
watched till 5am.
later mus watched summore
lols. shin wen angry beri shuai. >.<
when he smile beri sweet. waaa~
my brother bought me the dvd. how sweett.
thankkiee

hmm ytd went seoul garden.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE~!
yep yep. eat eat eat
got sausages..joyce's favourite =x haha
i lik the beef... and ice kachang. ooh got pineapples. loves*
still got "fried jellies, boiled watermelons with fragrant tissue..and fried watermelons with miced meat on top"
all these are chef's reccomandations.
the famous chefs :: joyce and ira
lols. can open restaurant. =p
stil got take neoprint.. walked aroud orchard
drink at starbucks
VANILLA~!!
yesterdae was awesome~!!
iif oni can pause the moment at seol garden..
continue eat eat eat. =))
ooh. i tink the best part was when yan jie suggested we should
sing birthday song to joyce!
WOW. saang so loud. our melodious voices echoes thru the restaurant..lols
aniwaes other tables oso got clap and sing along bahs. =))
then saw
huan
charmaine
shuyee
qian
..did i miss out anyone? dunn tinnkk so.
hahahs. shuyee bead necklace almost same as mine
both oso wear purple. lols.

then today still go amk.
meet my grandma.
she wann treat me go eat mahs.
lols. food-addict sia me.
ohh..take taxi thr.
pass by bishan thr... then got one sch...
i saw. then so many shuai ges playin basketball. WAA~
lol. i told my mum i wann transfer to tat sch
alamak. then see the sch is raffles instituition -.-"
eeeeeeee. no fair.
well aniwaes eat at ramen ten.
is tat jap restaurant? or korean? dunno lahhs
order the set meal..stil got tempura n soup and the sushi n rice.
eat until full
go grandma hse and sleep.
omg. im gettin lazier
wake up at 7pm. lols. slept for dunno how many hours...
wake up ate the blackforest cake.LOVES*
my FAVOURITE.

then goin home. round the whole estate searchin for the damn bustop wit the suitable bus
all nv reach bukit batok area. cos no straight bus to jurong...
jurong is 'THROWN-AND-ABANDONED IN THE CORNER OF THIS ISLAND!'
so in the end decided to go take bus to jalan kayu
its well known for roti prata...
go thr eat the paper prata. so HUGE.
stoopid mutton. six dollars for mutton!
goddamn shop.
so bloody expensive. my mum cook mutton a million times nicer.
...the prata was awesome though. no doubt.
but six dollars for a plate of mutton curry?? i'd rather buy tulang sia..
nvm....the food is areadi in my stomach.
cant possible dig out the food frm my mouth and ask for refund right?
sounds disgustingg....

haahs. enuff babbling
mus get off the com
i wann watch goong princess =))

hari raya

2006-10-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

weets~ hari raya .
hahahs. slamat hari raye =))
..went geylang againn.
not redlight district.
green light district.
tmr mus wake up early early.
then rush to jp.
lols. nid buy some STUFF. you know...stuff..
yea. then go granny de hous!

geylang
so many ppl.
then got one woman stepp mie shoee.
not happy.
yell.lols.
i've been yellin at ppl.
dunno why.
jus now i tryin to peel my fingernail. nv cut properly.
cant peel. FRUSTRATED.
then got one boy come kick
the stoopit soccer ball.
outside klas lahhs.
then hit my leg..
still kick?
walao. if i wear slipper i'd have thrown the slipper to his face =x
he so rude.
yep. i shouted.
lol. his frens look. dunn care lahhs.
ying jie cool me down.
lols. then go bck klas jin wen ask
'y u suddenly angry angry?' -.-

...somebody taught me,
if not happy, then say out.
yea. i yell out. it makes me feel better.
but i learnt tat we need to pray and keep cool.
throwning tantrums is a no-no. boo-boo!

btw, i've learnt:
if girls stare,
either u look away or stare back.
u dun stare, u escape.
u stare back, if u brave enuf.
war! lols
if guys stare, see if he cute or not.
if cute, smile, he ask for number. confirm. lol
if not, hide away lahhs,
if he still approach, gv wrong no bahhs. lol!

aniwaes this year hari raya lik more cheerful =)
so i beri de happy =))
cant wait salam my mum tmr.
then msg mazni =)) wee.
last yr, first day hari raya, teng sean visit my hous le. lol!
eat ketupat =.=" wahahahas.
looks lik tis yr he cnt come lahhs.
fly all the way frm new york?

now can hear the prayers on radio.
it ease the soul =))
i hope this marks the new beginning.
whr my loved ones shall be blessed=))
-salam aidilfitri!

market day. ytd bugis

2006-10-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

wee. obsessed with goong! lols. the sarang in ga yo song beri nice lo =) i like shin! he looks so serious..then wen he smile. wa! so sweet! =x hahahas. the other pricxe like too pretty le lols. but still prefer the crown prince =))

aniwaes todae go market. the floor was pathetically wet.disgusting.carried so many bags.1kg of rice. =( plus the rain. make mie slippers black black...heh todae ate alot alot of pineapples =))supposed to bake tarts,but who cares? i LOVE pineapples! it substitutes lemon! i LOVE LEMONS! lols

ytd go bugis.waa SHOPPING!!! hee. finalii bought the blouse wit the ribbon =)) hia hia hia!

stil haf amaths corrections to do. haiis! errgh.

goong!

2006-10-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

home alone lerrs

2006-10-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

taday go skOol quite sian. no. VERY SIAN!
msg edwin. then he v late then reply.
today lik no mood play card games oso.
then today nv fast
yeps. i cnt wake at 4am. lols. overslept.
then oso ytd sick..gastric pain v horrible!
so today rest at home... haiis.
now v hungry. no food.
im alone at home. disastrous.
i cant cook. i hav been readin a book ' too perfect'
the protagonist somehow won the guy's heart becos of her cooking. =.="
forget it.
haiis. somebody go m'sia again. haiis haiis haiis!
hari raya approaching
im gonna shop at bugis! yea~ 1o0 bucks to be spent.
dunno whether shold throw open hse anots.
like veri lonely lidat. who'd come?
well aniwaes, today mdm yeo's words inspired me. yea.
must keep improvin the grades~ whOosh

my list of wants

1) iwann new clothes
2)i wann new perfume
3) i wann new bag
4)new bf =x lols. kidding
5)nail polishh
6)new hairstyle
7)....i realise im v demanding..

heck. aniwaes my brother say wann buy me the princess hours cd after get his pay. but after i threw tantrum the othr day and dunch wan to carry the plastic bags, i tinkk he changed his mind =(

will you still remember those days?

sick

2006-10-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

princess hours rawks! hahahs
must thank mazni! she reminded me to watch the first episode!
now im addicted. its like heroin o.O
now im listening to the song.
wat the heck. its in korea. ahh. its international!
BEAUTIFUL! we shld learn othr cultures, other languages!
..im tryin to learn mandarin..though my pronounciation SUXX big time.
aniwaes my results wasnt very rainbow like.
pretty much dull..haiis.
i feel veri sick the whole day!
i tinkk cos i nv fast for two days..then suddenly fast..
i feel like im gonna faint?
im not sure if its gastric.. i know i cant puke. CANT!
i was so nervous abt gettin the results, i almost puke.
lucky didnt.. go my grandma hse to break fast.
ate kfc. drank one bigBIG cup of iced lemon tea.
trust me, i swore i felt like puking.i dunno.
i feel veri sick. tats all i know. and like headache. and still kip sneezing.
haiyo! SICKENING AHHS! ~lovesick. lols jkjk
CRISTIANO RONALDO IS HOT! very.
~mazni, fernando is hot too =)
todae suppose to go the industrial visit..
then cos i need to go geylang shopping. lols
so din industrialise. lols! went wif my mum and brother and uncle.
like i said, i dont feel quite well frm afternn til now.
stil had to wait for my bro. i throw tantrum =x
he ask me carry bag. i cross my arms and shake my head. lols. im BAD.
my finger paper cut! sobx! =(
so what if a person is smiling. its just a smile. doesnt mean the person is happy. so what if a person is laughing.. laughter doesnt prove that the person is satisfied with life. sometimes, even the happiest looking person might have misery burried deep within. we just cant assume, can we?

`wish i could tell u..i really wish i could.. wish you knew. i really do wish so.. can i turn back time and tell u whatever that need to be told..?

suntect

2006-10-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

its 1 am bah.
stil bloggin.
cant sleep..=(
i feel veri sad. i dunno why
i feel so deprived.
its just that, being me,
i m so used to putting up brave front to ppl ard me.
yea. i used to be the little girl in primary sch
who fell down with bleeding knees and holdin back her tears
when the guy beside her was crying his eyes out even though his was just a scratch.
im so used to keepin everitn to myself.
dont get me wrong. im not a fake.
when im out wit my frens, im a happy person...
right now i feel veri troubled.
one of the major reasons was exams..
the results... im anxious abt it right now.
i tink they'll reveal the results tmr bahs. i mean 'later'
im confused. okayys. MONDAY!
im anxious and nervous abt how my results will be...
i still haf othr problems in mind which i dont plan to let out.
i feel veri scared.i feel inferior..to everyone.
i have been feelin lik tis since last nite. i couldnt slp.
so today decided to go out wit joys, win-win and clar =)
yep. cheered me up bahs.
go watch movie. then go eat at kfc. =x sorri had to wit 4 me to eat for veri long.
then go rooftop. near esplanade there. veri nice! =)
but the haze veri errgh.
frm bugis go suntect.. 9o cents u know!!! =( HMPH.
aniwaes i hafta say, it was nice and worth the while. =))
haiis. but go home then veri sad again.
mr ong online. 120 am. haiyo.
veri xin ku lehhs. reminds me that tmr hfta go sch!
*grumbles*

..*will u still remember me?

update..!

2006-10-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

im so exhausted.
i nv update for so long. whahahahas
i've been gg out almost everyday lo
i tinkk 3 dayss ago go harbourfront wit joyce and edwin..
was it 3 days ago? lols. dunno bahs.
cant remember.
went vivocity...
sentosa beach appeared SOUL-LESS. literally.
ate ice-cream. drank VODAVODA.
then aft tt the nxt day go jp.wit mazni.
go see all the singapore idol finalists.
i noticed how cute hady was in person =x
weets. too bad. oni got one big BIGshot of jon.
cant take hady pic.
sly's hair was awesome! purple de =)
my hand was too shaky.
so all the sly pic i took dint turn out nice.
the PRINCESS HOURS so nice!! addicted~
just watched it on ch u..
now waitin for e ch 8 drama to start at 9pm.
my mum has been nagging to spring clean.
i DONT WANT!! im lazy =x
oh aniwaes sean was online that day
then chat chat. hahahas.
we said how much we miss each other and the old times ='(
then he say in nxt few years i'll hear someone knock on my door
i'll wonder who. open the door and its him. lols.
how imaginative~
then can play ps2. i tink by then i'll hv ps4 le. lols.
haiis. i still rmb. i call him on 31st dec last yr.
to wish him hapi burfday.
oni to find out he's gone to america. haiis.
he might be the big bully sittin beside me in class in p6.
but he's still a veri nice friend who cherish friendship =)
from then on, i realise we shud cherish all our friends wholeheartedly.
and not take a single moment out for granted =(
well aniwaes my cuz is at my house..yesh yesh =))
sleepover bah.
i reali hope the stupit haze will 'cool down'
its so foggy. like genting! lols.
im now sick bcOs if it... lucky now my runny nose okkayy le
to tink that i went to jp to see th SI idol finalists wit a bag full of tissues........... -.-"

NEW BLOGSKINN!

2006-10-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

yea. i made new blogskin~ commentx please? my mum says previous one is better... wat am i suppose to do??? i know can see the previous posts..cos the font too small.. im lazy to edit it okayys. dont read then! =X i dunn wann use the previous skin le. i get sick and tired of things easily. im awaes up for change! =))

2006-10-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

haiis.
i dunno wats up wit me.
i feel not quite right.

haiis...dunno lahhs. jus now listenin to some depressin songs. and it affected my mood. somehow. i tink. or maybe im just tired.. haiis. was chattin wit joyce and edwin.. then becos of my "not-quite-right-at-the-moment" brain, i cant reali figure out wat he's tryin to say. i noe he's upset...but dunno over wat. haiis. wori me n joyce.
tmr oso dunno if i can go sentosa.. i miss the sunset. there's so much things in my head right now.. i feel so lost, so empty, so....terribly sad. but i have no idea why. i just know that everyday i worry bout my results lahhs. and like a million and one things running thru my mind. its chaotic, my brain. but apparently, when im out, i feel lively. when im at home, im lifeless. and the brain goes hoo-ha once again.i cant focus. i dunno why. arrgggh. i was like watchin tv, when my mum talk or nag, my brain goes blank and i dint even know she said somethin. even on msn, i go blank. even now when im typin, i feel BLANK. the words that run thru the brain is like automatically typed out. omg. i need some sleep.

these wounds wont seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
-evanescence song? gawsh i dun even know how to spell

tmr emaths pp 2 le

2006-10-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

okok . kh3 is out! ...but in japan. and worse, in ps3 only. which means my ps 1 and 2 are pretty much helpless =( i wann! sobx....hah. as usual, i'll depend on my brother's wage to get that game set and i'll be the spoilt brat playing the game at home during my holidays while he go carry beer barrels and attend the bar. wow. amazing lifestyle i have. hey but i wanna get a job too...if possible... the last time i had a job, i had problem turning up punctually. aahhh who cares? i 'll deal with that soon. i want new bag, new shoes, new mp3, new hairstyle, manicure, pedicure, new perfume, new new NEW! my motto " like it? go buy it.." lols.
NEW TV! oh my gawd how can i leave that out? the tv is freaking me out. the big FAT tv is totalli FRIED. the whole resistor has a problem. god knows. as far as i could rmb, 3 technicians couldnt fix it. the medium sized tv, on the other hand, is a love with the vcr player. once the vcr cable gets disconnected, 'grey dotsy picture'*as what i call it* will appear on the tv screen. like just now, while i was watchin the show on HBO...the guy and the girl (in the show) in the kissing scene. once their lips about to touch.... the grey dotsy picture appears. arrgh. i couldnt fix it. i had to watch 'blur vision' thruout the whole show until my mum woke up to fix it for me. the tiny tv, which leads to the projector, i have no idea how to set it up. the medium- small size tv is as old (ahem..young) as me. its 15 yrs. old. still working fine in the bedroom. the other medium sized tv is used in my brother's room to play ps2. =)
btw, i watched silent hill ytd. the show's pretty freaky. better than the stay alive i must say... well silent hill caught my attention..yet , as usual, my attention drifts away pretty fast. i got lost halfway thru the show. i couldnt understand! wat the heck was going on?! why does the girl has another sister?! i thot she's adopted as a baby? then how come she's being bullied and called a witch at middle school in silent hill? its awfully confusing. hafizah told me i had to play silent hill game to understand...wat the heck. i cant even control the woman in the game. resident evil 4 is the best(consider the fact that i used the bazooka to kill the monster. one shot. its dead. my brother used like 20 shotgun ammos??such a waste)..
ohh man. tmr is emaths pp2. my oh my. todae was english pp2. edwin kor promised to msg me n joyce. hhahas. wish us goodluck? =) yep he msg ytd.
ohh yea, i noticed i develop clown-phobia over the years. dint notice that. stoopit clowns. freaking annoying. they're so tall and on stilts.. its a stoopid sight okays. i attempted to get over the disgusting fear by shaking hands with em...eww. i realise i start to hate em more.

somewhere in my secret heart I know, love will find a way

exam mood

2006-10-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

yeah. today i fast. =) . *bing* (the sparkling sound ....dotx. okayys. nevermind)
i woke up at like 4 am. shower. then eat. and sleep again. hahahs. woke up ard 12pm. then i watched a vcd called eight below. its a show abt snow dogs. inspired by real story. my bro says its good. so i wanna prove how bad his judgement was...too bad for me. cos i proved myself wrong instead. lols. it was soooOoOoO veri veri tOuching. really. ALMOST cried. but cant. cos when u're fasting, u cant cry. i guess...dunno lahhs. fikri said that. yea. so i took his word for it. break fast by eating zinger burger, i stopped to think...was there any day of the week that i have avoided fast food??? oh my gawsh. i need serious help. STAY OUTTA FAST FOOD. but there's so little alternatives...food court food usually sux. either too spicy, too salty too cold...all that crap. and u cant just dig up the soil and find food, right? yea. gimme ten good reasons why i should avoid fast food (attemted to...)
haiis. alot has been going thru my mind lately. alot alot. its like my mind is swimming in a vast ocean of thoughts.... there's this feeling of nervousness, anxiety, fear...miixture of everything. even sadness. i dunno why. i feel so empty. literally empty. its just so very very weird. and i notice something, i like to escape from my feelings. like ignore them . maybe it helps a bit but sometimes it just makes things worse cos its kinda bottled up. haiis. i wonder what's up tomorrow. the exams are exerting so much pressure. i feel so inferior...somehow.

*____ther's not a star in heaven that we cant reachnot a want, but a need

hsm

2006-10-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
-hiGh sChoOl musicaL sOundtracK =p

crapp

2006-10-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

ohh yeahh~ im craPPing. its an everyday routine

as we travel thru life's long Road,
we meet and make new friends.
and even though the friends may go,
the friendship never ends.
-PROMISE-

Such a feeling is coming over me,
There is wonder in most everything I see.
Not a cloud in the sky,
Got the sun in my eyes
And I wont be surprised if its a dream..
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me.
And the reason is clear,
Its because you are here
Youre the nearest thing to heaven that Ive seen..
Im on the top of the world
Looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that
Ive found
Ever since youve been around
Your love puts me at the top of the world.

Dont waLk in fRont Of mE.
iMay noT foLLow.
dont walkbeHind me.
imaY nOt leaD.
Walk beSide me.
aNd be my FrienD

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms
(the video of tis song is veri veri sad. wen i first watched it, it ALMOST moved me to tears. wahahhas. but didnt.)

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy
I chased away the shadows of your name
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.
And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.
We built it up,To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?
(tis all the lyrics i can rmb. tis song was by nick lachey. yea. its sad laahs. he cheat on jessica simpson. we were all fooled by it( every1 tt watches newlyweds). to think that they're so lovey dovey. i thot their celeb marriage would've lasted. but dint. )

lantern festival!!

2006-10-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

~whee. todae aft skOol went hOme. then cos i nv puasa(tmr then can..) .yea. then reached home. terrible gastric pain. not sure why laa. if i puasa then nvr gastric pain lehhs. yea. so mit edwin n joyce at the mcdonalds. (in tagalog its called: macdod? lol! ) yea. then dunno lahhs. things crop up. dammit. i cnt be bothered to think. (btw. i eat mc like almost everyday? i ate it ytd for breakfast...)
aniwaes . wen i got home, went out again.....go to je. wit my mum. nid acc her buy smth.
wahhs. then reached home very tired le. sui jiao =) woke up at 6.50. yeps. then eat and rush out again . whahahas. my mum was like saying 'wahh why u wear until so obiangg??' wth. wateverr. it jurong west for goodness sake. i go thr almost everyday since sec 1. its like part of my neighbourhood le. lols! yeps. then plae plae lorrs. charm and me tried to make a big big heart by using candles.. then aik song say the heart out of shape. lols. then kawei cindy qian they all go cc ahhs. ooh gerry came for a min and gone for an hour to go buy sparklers. he came with oni candles. he claimed he went to over 1o shops but all out of stOck. LOL! nvm la. aik song hero save the day ( wait. its night.) he go home take sparklers. lols. wahh. then liting charm qian and huan we all go walk walk around the park. huan and liting wit the lantern .lols. its pikachu lantern, not pikachu candle..lols! they attempted to make an explosion wit the lighter. suayy. dint hppen.
ohh yea. todae the chinese teacher invigilate(right spelling?) the class. then when she see my paper she got very confused. like panic panic liddat. its as though she given me the wrong paper. then i say 'no no no. DIFFERENT!' HAHAHS. she took awhile to figure out. then she say 'orhh. okok' lols! diao... pri skOol o kena scolded. the teacher givin out the malay paper. then ask malay students raise the hand. i raised mine. kena yell sia. 'i said malay students!' walao. of so many students she scolded me. i innocently say yea im a malay. -.-" then she apologize. then tt day the taxi driver ask ' wat mother tongue language u take? ' - erms. okkayys- and then ppl come up to me ask number , confirm ask in chinese de. haiyo. everyone talk to me in chinese. i understand abit. but i can oni reply in english. LOLS! i wanna learn chinese lahhs. haiyo. fed up le. lols. then bus drivers thot im chinese or im frm myannmar. omg. =.=" thats weird. i dont look myanmmar. i go thailand they thot my mum was phillipines. i go boon lay they thot im thai. okok. my grandparents both side malay marry chinese. so my parents both purely mixed. then me? well lets just say - rojak.

Sometimes its hard just to be yourself
i know u know
so close to tears, wanting to give up
i'm here all alone
now u're here right by my side
and i just want you to know
you give me wings when i'm falling
you lift me up when i'm down
taking me high, touching the sky
yeah you make me fly
now i am stronger than i was before,
because of you
i feel so alive and i'm wanting more
i can't believe it's true
but now u're here by my side
don't ever let me go

hady

2006-10-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

watched singapore idol again. yep. my mum recorded mahs. so can watch over and over again. hady's voice so sensational. so WOW. yea. hahahs...ohh yea. the tv crush is overwhelming. for soccer i like cristiano ronaldo. wwe i like john cena , yea he is the champ! SI i like joakim and hady =) wow. so many. hahahahs.
haiis. cant type much now. gtg.

ohh crap

2006-09-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

oh crap. i woke up todae wit runny nose. keep sneezing. so sickening. worse. it was rainig. cindy ask me go out study lo..wit yang meng and kawei they all. i tink. haiis. then cant go cos raining mahs. by the time the rain stop areadi 3 pm le. then i haf tuition at 4 pm...haiis so cant go. now feeling guilty. haiis then ytd a girl come find fault wit me on bus. that fuckin bitch. ahem. i dont fight with ppl who look uglier than my shoes okayys. i find it a waste of time and its so un-glam. why bother. all i know was that i wasnt in a good mood. she kept staring. i rolled my eyes. exchange of words. yea. blaa bla blaa. long story. i shud've taken taxi home that day. i called up my mum to complain that buses 98 are crowded. then she tell me to take taxi. so suayy the bus 98 came by and boom i clash wit an ugly bitch. yea. its the ramadan season so i dunn wann find fault wit ppl. i really anticipate seeing her ugly face again. (consider the fact tt she lives nearby)
haiis. then later must go revise agaiin. yupp. todae ii attempted to cook. but wasnt so successful. ehheh. i forgot to turn off the electric cooker. ohh damn. my mum yelled at me. nvm about it. i just hafta face the fact that i suck at cooking. i cant even cook instant prata! for goodness sake! i got burnt and was super hard..okayys. NEVERMIND.

ooh i find the lyrics of tis song awesomely sweet. yeah

feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one
feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
---
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

2006-09-23T19:04:00.000+08:00

ytd wentt ngee ann poly. second time go there le. lols. siian. btw, the poly reminds me of victor (= hee. he's from tt poly. lost contact le. sadd. i lost contact widd alot alot of ppl lo. jeffery oso. haiis.
then ytd got alot alot of free gifts. not much of the maths though. got alot of candies. LOLLIPOPS! ILOVELOLLIPOPS! wahahahahs. the vanilla ones are nice. yumm. now i got the craving for candyy floss =) i love sweet sweet things! oh yea. i rmb the chupa chups advertisement - CHUPA CHUPS! the pleasure of sucking .......-.-" i was like..??? dude. it spoilt my perspective of chupa chups !
aniwaes clarence made me so paiisehh. he n reuben talked wit me on the phone. they made me confused. up to the point that i deceived myself into believng i was in amaths..i m in emaths!! ~okayy..nevermindd..
well today i woke up sick. yea. sick. its freaking sickening! i had food poisining...i woke up at 5 am becos of it. bloody hell. then slept again. todae watched pimp my ride uk style. eww. it sucks. i prefer the original one. heh.

-she.looked.away. she.walked.away. shud have done that earlier. ROCK THE WORLD BABY!

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin
'Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
HeyI'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Just walk away~
I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel and burn
My desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hide
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?'
Cause if you don't then just leave

*whee~im addicted to tis song. it rocks my socks XD totalli~

home alone

2006-09-21T16:56:00.000+08:00

~sigh. so lonely. at home alone. =( so long nv update. -.-" ohh yea ytd i did all my hmk..even did my revision. talk on the phone liike one hr plus plus laa. yea. then i dunno why i chuck a whole set of wshts n some pieces of foOlscap on my study table laa.. then my emaths hmk was one of those 'chucked' pieces -.-" then todae go schoOl very guilty lo. haiis. feel so bad. dunno if mr ong believe onot lo. i realli did my work.... haiis.
well today mt class was as depressing as ever. reuben pon schoOl. amin escape dunno run go where. waahh..oni have me n harith..feel like jumping off the building. lols.
omg. ytd watched s'por idol. weeTs. haf jOakim! =) performing monkey! ~wahahhahas. he dance until beri cute de. lols. ohh yea speaking of dancing, the wade robson from mtv is coming to the esplanade. lols. i wann go watch! tix are at 35 bucks...i wann go!! wahahhas. and i wann go watch movie at the padang. i find that romantic =x wahahahs.
my back aches! must bring home all e books. cant be bothered so took cab. hahahs.
now im gonna nap. hee.

_______`you.dont.know.me. .you.dont.even care. .tears.are.unspoken.words. .smiles.can.just.be.fake. HYpnOtiSed-

joakim

2006-09-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

tdae went bugis wit joyce to buy present for our favourite edwin =) weetS~ guess what..
i left my 5o bucks at home! how predictable! i jus brought like 2o bucks??? dear ira. what the fuck can u get with 2o bucks?! sobx. so jus bought edwin's present and walk walk (till i cant feel my legs animore) then went home ard 5pm. ohh and i went bugis again ard 7 pm. cos there's this shorts that i like so much..so i went there again. this time , i brought money =o wee! hahahahs. ohh i went wit my mum laa. wahh. wanted to take cab. but so suayy the bus arrived first.... yea. on the train, there's this guy...he looked like joakim. and i told my mum im gonna blog about it. lols. i like the way he dresses up and his hair.look like joakim. but too bad. not joakim.and i tinkk everybody knows im crazy over joakim.....yea i voted. i tink his voice is good, maybe he panicked. well aniways, im a fan... ok. so reached bugis, at the traffic lights, i was talking to my mum. suddenly got this guy... walking from across the streets. he crossed the traffic lights. honestly, i dint notice all these details. jus that when he approached nearer, he smiled. my brain blocked. i just smile. do i even know him?? lols! it was joakim! omg! ira's insane! she cant recognize her tv crush...wahahahahs. my legs went numb. lols. i just said hi joakim. it realli was him! realli ! i swear! my mum saw him too! and when i said hi, i dunno why, guess i was hypnotised, my voice was like...drunk! lols. he said HI. wow. he's hot. his voice kinda,no ,VERY sexy. yea. lol. sounded abit like mr ngian...only sexier. wahahhahas. he is so super hot.. damn i melted. i was like thinking, shud i take picture? shud i? shud i? but i just couldnt move..-.-" i oni know my legs went wobbly. when i reached bugis village, i couldnt concentrate on the shorts.i was like thinking, less than 10 mins ago i saw a guy that look abit like joakim, now i realli saw joakim.. am i dreaming? so here i am, blogging about it, so tmr i can check and see whether did i dream. wow. aniwaes the shorts was 3o bucks..managed to force the ah beng to gv discount. lols. 28. not bad la. i oni know the last time i saw olinda cho, in the ladies toilet, i couldnt care less and just look in my own reflection on the mirror. lols. and i saw fauzie, i ditched my frens and run to get his autograph and got sesat. lols. but we managed to get group photo. and i took photo with sam from saw losers. and now joakim said hi? lols. i waited to long to see him smile... waahhh.. ahahhas. i have done my homework! yea. tmr haf tuition. a new tutor. brokenn english de. lols. i feel bad. haiis. nv contact lauren for tuition animore. change tutor le. haiis. ohh that time i went jp saw mattew. whahahas. i couldnt recognize. my mum did. he waved. lols.
ohh wow. i still cant believe i saw joakim..so WOW.

jp wit alex

2006-09-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

extremely tired la.. lol. was late for skul todae lohhs... the bus came late.. and got one old man fell on the bus. i feel guilty laa. i could've helped...haiiis. then after school got life science. go BOTANIC GARDENS. i got the word right. and guess what.. i forgot about dc... ohh shit.
then aft school go jp. haiis. now reali tired la. haiis. im gonna do hmk now. pathetic right? must work hard laa. eoy coming. must put in big BIG effort la. yup yup yupx. will update when there's free time. tata

spoilt brat!

2006-09-12T22:18:00.001+08:00

hee. i slept for the whole lesson of mt todae *guilty* . ok i know im not supposed to do that... but we were suppose to read the newspp for the whole hour and do reflection.. hmm lets just say i did revision the previous night...so i was pretty much exhausted.
err oh yea, havent buy edwin's present yet =x so probably hafta go out on weekends buy the gift wid joyce. waahh. then fri nite must chiong revision. lol. i doubt will happen~!
okayy okayy, todae sat same bus wit kai yang. he sat 1 seat in front. aiya dunno how to explain la. aniwaes there's this empty can( those type for sweets one...) beside me. i attempted to throw to him. IRA does nothing but disturb people. yea. omg. it bounced off the chair and hit the floor with the loud *ping pong piang!* . then everyone stared. o mi gosh....extremely paiisehh...lols. let's just pretend nobody heard anything.
im extremely bored right now. been eating snickers. i wann drink the bacardi breezer. that time ecp dont sell.. long long time nv taste le. mixed wine aint so bad =)) im realli BORED. dying of boredom. my mum's watching the most ' BORING -rated' show ever. that malay drama. oh my garwsh...it freaks me out.
haiis. and i veri dissapointed with WWE le. broke mie heart. haiis. john cena lost to edge just becos edge used brass knucks. that's foul. my dearly beloved john cena is injured =( eee. now the posters of john cena in my room abit outdated le. LOLS. he's still with the championship belt. hahs . SAD hors.
wahahhahahs. now listening to a jap song..i tink...shiqi send me. weets!
+i.want.to.buy. PERFUME. BAG.
+i.want.to.eat. STEAK. PASTA.
+i.want.to.live.like.a.spoilt.brat.LOLS.

holidays over

2006-09-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

im lazy to blog anymore. really. lmao. so muchh hmk. i have been goin out at night or napping till 1 am and doin homework till 5 am... yea that's my holidays . how ENJOYABLE! eerrrgh. let me see. wed go ecp wit my frens.. then thurs go plae pOol wit my tiger =) (aka my god sis) . hmm then friday chiong alot ALOT of homework. cos saturday went out. wow. i balance work and play okayys. then today attempted to do
maths... yea. i'll do later.

...he caught my eye. lol. pull out the eyeballs. eewwww

ecp

2006-09-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

hey. guess what. when i woke up this morning, and i realised that i forgot how to walk. i dragged myself to the toilet. damn freakin tired lo. omg. by the time i stood in front of the toilet door, i felt like collapsing..my leg hurtx. my eyes still wanna sleep. my body ain't conscious.
hmm ytd went ecp wit ronald, edwin, joyz n clar. me n clar went skul first. then took taxi to lakeside. meet ronald. then meet joyz. then went to plaza singapura ( aka plaza singapore.lol)
go eat ljs. then go ecp cycle. meet edwin. hmm long story huh. cycle till we saw the moon rise... i dint get to watch the sunset. wait, sun sets in the west right????? ok whatever. basically i had alot alot of fun. except the part that we missed the train. that sux. everiting else was so nice =))
will upload pics next time when mr bartender is in good mood..if now i ask for his hp, i'd be digging my own grave.....
edwin's burfade approaching! wahahhas~

btw, i watched news the other night and i almost cried. steve irwin died. omg.its unbelievable. and i always thot of him as the man of steel. he wrestles with crocodiles, calls every snakes sweetheart .... i reali cant believe till now. he's like an idol to me. he's like a hero . he saved lives of many animals. he cares for animals as how he would for a human. when i saw the news 'crocodile hunter' died, i felt as though the world has lost a truly nice, kindhearted and caring man. its so sad. seems like animal planet wont be as how it used to be. he's a nice person, i believe he'd go to heaven =)

troubled

2006-09-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

omg. its been ages since i've had a journal. i've been blogging and forget abt my diary. guess i lost it. been very very sad lately. not too sure why. maybe im paranoid bout things. i havent been in mood to blog. not in mood to study or do homework. the radio seems to sux big time. the tv is showing crappy movies. the ps2 doesnt seem to be much of a company either. went out wit my frens, the 'high' feeling didnt last long. all i know is that im very stressed and that i had been gorging down food. i ate rice for breakfast . then i ate bread. then i stared eating longans and guavas and durians..and i drank milkshake. lols. unhealthy lifestyle. but i just cant figure what's upsetting me. just feel like breaking down.. i need a diary to pen down my thoughts. i hate personal stuff being read by others. and now my diary's long gone..
everything seems so suckky.. not too sure why.. errgh. and i think my sms is overload. i sms like ii think more than 100 in a day... well whatever. i dont know whr my god brother go oso laa. said he'd be back in two days time..its been 5 days and i stil cnt get thru his fone. bloody hell. maybe i worry over small stuff like this. then my dad. haiis. im not sure why there's this 'negative force' between us. im very depressed. i miss my life like 5 yrs ago. i miss my home in thailand. i fuckin miss the condo and the pool... at least holidays is something i look foward to. and my dad left my brother's sega saturn in the apartment.. that sega saturn was expensive okayys. gone in a flash. i miss the beach and the malls there. and im not too sure who to blame for all this. my dad said i had attitude problem . and that i was disrespectful. was i? WOW im so surprised. my life now is far from perfect. when im with my friends or my brother, im very happy. but sometimes on certain days, you cant just erase off memories and pretend everything's A-ok. not even my closest friends know all about my life..i keep most of it to myself somehow...
well maybe life aint kind to me today and yesterday..maybe it'll be kind to me tomoro or maybe in a few days time..i dunno. there's bound to be light at the end of every tunnel right? eoy exams round the corner so i have no choice but to vaccinate myself against being overly paranoid. im just sad that i cant be a perfect daughter..

hair salon

2006-09-01T18:09:00.000+08:00

a trip to the salon was made magical =)) wahahahhas. went to je todae. mummy went to one shop. i went to the salon beside the shop she went. (okayy..my english sux todae. ) aniwas i realised that the one shop charges $5 more than the other...so i go for the more expensive one.. lols! ira is INSANE. okok whatever. apparently i prefer guy hairdresser cos the touch is different from ladies la.. and the way they do their job is like they give their very best. ladies anihow cut people hair and their nails are sharp and they are somewhat very rough. well aniwaes the hair dresser that attend to me was really good. the way he massage my head really good (= his hair style very attractive. it looks very much alike teppei's hair(except that teppei hair is pinkish). its like u mix jay chou and teppei and voila this guy appears. then somehow i got runny nose. then i dun haf tissue. then he get me the tissue. lols. then when need to use the hair dryer, he go help other people cut hair. another cute guy help dry my hair with another lady hairdresser.. waa then that guy come back and replace the lady. wow. two cute guys help dry my hair. suddenly i feel so lucky. lols.
other than je, i dint go aniwhere alse. ohh yea went 399 go eat porridge. haiis so much homework. so stressed. i need a manicure!! (=

~when it comes to wasting money, nobody does it better than ira =)

changi

2006-08-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

today went changi airport send my grandma cos she going pilgrimage. wake up early in the morning cos nid fetch my aunty and meet my uncle. damn i missed travelling. go airport i was like- "i wann fly to thailand. dun wann stay here! i missed the condo. i missed the people... when im there i feel im home" ... =(
ohh and my aunt says i've lost weight. huh? got mehh??? i dint believe. so just now went 399 and took my weight. lols kiasu. i gained 2 kg..SURPRISING. heh. ohh and i thot holidays was like 2 weeks... then i realised its only ONE PATHETIC week. looks like my hibernation wont last long..

lover's in love and the other went away
lover is crying cos the other wont stay

2006-08-27T00:52:00.000+08:00

todae went to my grandma house. lols. go there eat chicken rice then sleep. wake up then go home le. lols. feel so bad. haiis. cos promised my mum i'd go with her mah. suppose to meet up wit fren n study wors. must cancel. then ron wann go out oso i cant. haiis. feel realli bad. hmm then did abit of amaths.. tink i'll read bio textbk b4 sleeping tonite. bio textbook is like my bedtime storybook =) puts me to sleep and at the same time the info gets absorbed in the brain. bought clothes again. cos wen jp wit mummy to take mrt to amk to my grandma hse. and intended to buy bag. but none suits me. so bought a necklace and keychainS and clothes instead. when i got home i rearranged my clothes according to color =) so many..must start buying more hangers x) cupboard OVERLOAD.
__punkrock superstar with flowers in her hair x)
you wOnt know what you've got till its gone..you always want what you cant have
__i'll shout out your name so it echoes in every room

vanilla mint!

2006-08-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

ira cant sleep! ate 3 vanilla mints jus now. the taste of vanilla doesnt seem to go away. and my breath smells of vanilla, wat the hell.... lols. i haf insomnia(not sure of the spelling..) difficulty sleeping. i aint kleptomatic no more. (= . okayys im crapping again. read george's blog just now. i agree that the canteen food suxx big time. and the price aint worth it. $2.30 for a plate of rice with few chunks of cold chicken pieces and as-hard-as-rock burger patties...its sad. sadded. it makes me sad. im veri sad. saddening. okay im over reacting. ...ohh and the maggi whipped potato seems to have become a bit more watery and there's lesser volume.. =(
food food food. now im hungry. haiyo.

....i wanna be on a cruise to carribean right now. or maybe being at paris' eiffle tower..(spelling??) or rome's colliseum....i just dont wanna be HERE . fly me to the moon.

magarita strawberry.daiquiri lime.harvey wallbanger...
<3its.in.the.'cage'

mac

2006-08-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

heh. noticed somethin today. seems like the bus got alot of handsome guys X) lols. im INSANE. todae quite awful during school. i was so stressed up about physics test... in the end, its postponed. ohh and i noticed that ms liyana awaes call george, miao, ronald and me. lols. she must have memorised our names x) wahahahs. ehh today life science dint do much..learnt bout tissue culture in plants.. me n miao miao picked carrot. charmaine and olivia picked orchids.. then looked at the fern fronds under the microscope. surprisingly, i can see the spore bag and the spores. they look cute =) then after life science all 4 of us go mama shop eat maggi..nuggets and the 2o cents ice.. head bck school..did my e and a maths homework.. i noticed that my bio wbk is long gone... not sure where.. today in school quite happy laa actuali . reached home my mood all spoil... cant stand it laa. so decided to go mac and study . at least keep my mind off othr stuff. errgh. then lauren cnt tuition on sunday. haiis. my tutor is always too busy ='( seems as though i've quit tuition. so much has changed over the years...so much difference in such short period of time. wonder what's in store tomorrow..

<3>

science centre

2006-08-23T19:29:00.000+08:00

went to science centre today. not that amazing.... the stuff alot is spoil spoil de. the only interesting stuff was seeing the baby chick hatch...oso like gonna die lik that. the mice are cute... other than the animals, nothing else there seem to facinate me. so i kinda give up and go to macdonalds with ying jie instead. i wasnt reaaly keen with the food there. i eat macdonalds like almost everyday.... seriously. i lead an unhealthy life. why shud i care when nobody cares. ....macdonalds delivery is one of the most dialled number in my hp. =)

ohh. im 1O0% purely immune to clarence. got the "CLARENCE-PHOBIA-SYNDROME". ...he fell off the chair. i laughed. the next minute, i was on the floor too. yea. he pushed me. we both get up. then my turn for revenge. i pushed him while he's trying to get the paper plane frm the ground. he fell. guess thats what bestfriends are for.

must go do maths le. no nap. haiis.
-watching it fade away. watching helplessly as it all falls apart.

bugis

2006-08-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

ytd mr bartender's burfday (= . mummy go buy burfday cake. she bought blackforest. my favourite!!!! ...but she forgot that my brother hates blackforest =.=' its his burfday yet he dislike the cake... heh. ohh went to bugis last night. took cab thr. bought clothes. my closet is exploding. i hate wearing a piece of clothing more than twice when going out with the same bunch of ppl. (nvm if u dont understand my englishh..) spent 50 bucks. not bad right? MY OWN MONEY... =.=" cos my mum pay for taxi fare thru and fro and my bro buy buy his own stuff... bought starbucks...burnt a hole in e pocket. 2o bucks.
ohh and at bugis there got hot air balloon! its so big! it'll be so nice to go on a date on the balloon. that's hot. but each time you go up, need to pay 21 bucks... -.-" ohh and did i mention that my face somewhat got smacked by the taxi door...? i stood on the curb..i slammed the door of the cab... somehow i lost balance(cos i was standing on the squeezy curb..not much space to stand on actually)...and i dunno how the door slammed hard on my left cheek.. i dint react much..cos it dint hurt at first..but after a minute or so, it hurts like hell..! lucky there's no bruise.. so paiisehh.. my first reaction was to see whether my brother saw. lols. i wasnt really suree how it happened actually..was weird.
dont know why i keep going to youtube and listen to the jay chou hei se mao yi. its like glue sniffing...... =))
today wasnt as exciting as ytd laa. went school as usual. mt class was my toilet break. the teacher brought us too library.. i found a storybook. decided to translate to english version... pinched clarence cos he everyday kacau me. he pulled my bag. somehow i ACCIDENTALLY kicked his leg. lols.. *apologies* then after schOol walked with jing hui to bus stop. then went home. eat. shower. sleep. do hmk and here i am. hey i spend alot of time sleeping okayys...>.<

_______clinging on to an empty hope. a trench was dug in my heart. please heal me.

kbox

2006-08-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

wOots. today went to kbOx with ronald and alex. =) beri long nv go out with either of them lohhs. hee. went there at 4pM. whOa. alot alot of songs. got the nuts, fries, sotong balls, drinks... then alex ordered shirley temple. its beri nice. i like the color. its mocktail so there wasnt any alcohol in it. lols.. then somebody dropped the glass until crack wors x) wahhahas. not me =X the room was messy when we left... and alex go throw the remote to the wall cos its spoil spoil . lols!
after kbOx-ing we go kfc..ate the chicken chop again . had gastric so eat beri beri the slow. then ronald left ='( pang sehh. hahhas. no laa. kidding. took photos with that 810i until eyes see stars lehh. the flash was so bright. haahs.

my dearest little god brother. >.<

=( the bruise on my leg very awful laa. fell down at the bus steps few days ago . haiyo. so paiisehh.. the bus was silent then suddenly a loud thud. i knocked my leg on the steps. lucky nv roll down. people all look. and i almost hit my head on the pole =( heh. the consequences of taking bus to school.. aniwaes i've been taking taxi to school these days...keep on waking up late . mummy threatened to make me use my own money for taxi fares...not fair, my brother take taxi to work everyday! BEING LATE IS A GIRL'S PRIVILIGE okayys...

___neverbereplaced

detention

2006-08-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

reached home. shower. dragged the smelly pillow from my bed. sat down on the computer chair. and here i am, right in front of the computer screen, exposed to radiation.... lets just say i was pretty pissed with my brother. he deleted my account off the computer. now i dont have a share of the pie. and i cant do much cos he aint at home at the moment.....

today mt lesson i chiong my test. whoa. wrote like 4 pages of compo.. love story mahhs. so its pretty interesting. lets just hope i dont jumble malay with indonesian language. i watched too much indo drama that i confuse all the words with malay...its 98% the same..the weird thing bout indo drama is that when they get hospitalised, they somehow look possessed by some kinda spirits..lol..

hmm let me babble about my day in detention class.. i was late for school maybe cos i spent too much time staring at the mirror.. That explains the punishment. they shut the gate without me!!! i veli guai-kia okayys. i did my homework for the whole two hours. i did AMATHS! =) got affinity for amaths le. suddenly e maths grade drop x) will buck up de. the whole class was filled with so many ppl. wan hoe like couldnt believe i was in detention class... sad hors.. the class was LOUD. with ppl using hp and eating and sleeping... i was the onli one doing homework so diligently =) can i get merit points pls..? lols.. got a few who did revision oso laa..i sms my mummy say i got dc. she replied 'ha.ha' .. =.="

a tower of lego, if smashed to the ground, still can be fixed together again. the jigsaw puzzles if pulled apart from each other, still can be placed back together nicely. a vase if broken into pieces, still can be glued together....even though crack lines can be seen, if we were to learn to appreaciate that its still a vase and love the vase as it is... its all well worth it. it all depends as to how u wanna view it.

__i.havent.let.go.still.waiting.for.the.day.to.come.threemoredayslerr.

crazee gerl

2006-08-14T17:33:00.000+08:00

wahhaahahs~ im INSANE. today suppose to haf mt test. then i protest! dont wann do! -.-" diaos. suckky lahhs. the story's suppOsed to be ' write a story that has an unexpecting ending'... i had a story on my mind... but like my story's 'unexpecting' part's in the middle, the climax. so i think think think for one hour. then dont do lohh..the teacher tell me tmr do. lols. realli cant think. some more got emaths common test. haiis! stress! so many mistakes...lerr.. oh my gosh.. *fingerx crossed*

oh yea, my niece coming to singapore =) wee~ i miss her lohhs. so cute! but my nephews ( 1 yr old and 2 year old) stay in m'sia..nvr come visit s'pore. so oni can see my cousin n niece =) oh my god. im an aunty...eee like so old likedat..lols. i bought a small small barney for my niece. x) i wann younger sister! im asking for the impossible, yea i know. must waiit for my brother to get married. lol. xD -.-"

ohh..today went kfc wit cindy..jing hui got headache so nv go eat =( saw joyce at kfc. lols. i ate the chicken chop. first time eat so fast x) gOt alot of hua yians at kfc todae. lols. dunno why i've been craving for lemons these few days. its super sOur hahahs =D. hmm mdm yeo today like fierce fierce wann.. =(

..nid turn off com lerrs. mus go do hmk. sobx sobx ='(
_________*alwaysinmyheart.neverforgotten

stress

2006-08-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

yay..! mr bartender off to work le.. now i can use the computer with peace. x) aniways i woke up today only to realise that there's a pimple on my face. omg. =( weekends' gonna be suckkyy.. sooOoOO muCh homework. im a lazy gurl okayys...i woke up at 2pm today.. and i havent touch any assignment at all.. i've been gobbling food the whole day. i still owe ms goh homework..(i good gurl okayys..though lazy..ll complete it de and hand in) lol.. and mr ong's online assignment. HAIYO! i dont even know what to do! oh my... im in hot soup. monday's emaths common test wednesday chem test. haiis! the brain cells aren't functioning properly.. too much radiation from the computer. so how to store so much information?? im so dead can~

im not too sure when the perfect moment will come..... haiis. im really at lost ler. i do not know..i mean i cant make assumptions of whats in his mind right now. somehow i wish all this mess hadn't happen. it was so beautiful before. ...what went wrong..? dont pretend u're clueless of my feeling de.

pinky

2006-08-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

cant help but notice this cutesy pink teddy bear. pinky =) hahahs

photogenic hors? XD

sungei buloh

2006-08-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

~wheee

today. went sungei buloh. yep. that mosquito-infested mangrove swamp... surprisingly the place seems interesting.. i forgot to bring insect repellent. but its not mosquito-infested at all. really. phew~ its quite an interesting place. there were alot of insects though. alot ALOT. when we walked in, everyone was like so enthusiastic in finding insects and weird stuff like that....i turned to the left then suddenly got this spider like 5cm long. omg! it was huge.... HUGE. near my head lohh...i was about to shriek.... then tried to take photo of it... lol. its not as though my camera is 2 megapixel...obviously cant see... it somewhat camouflage. then there were butterflies ( ironic huh? butterflies in swamps....) then there were lots and lots of crabs. and beetles. and MUDSKIPPERS! they're so cute! olivia mistook them for otters... cos those mudskippers were huge! there were half- beak fish..(not sure of the spelling)... charmaine kept complaining she's tired. lol. she say she getting old =x . then after that ms ng bring us to the aerophonics technology... so much plants.. there's peppermint and cotton.. stuff like that. i was so famished. bought ice cream and ate on the coach on the way back to school =)

ginger flower!

alot ALOT of beetles on the underside of the leaf...

reached home played kh2... my brother bough the guidebook . its 29 bucks. the game itself was like 85 bucks if not mistaken. then bought satay and drink soyabean. i remember those days where i used to go clementi with fik, fizah and mel... while all the studentcare kids nap, we go the shop nearby buy soybean in glass bottle and ate baked beans with cheese... then when they wake up, we get ready for lunch..hee.

`___the keyblade. sora. kairi. a love torn apart. the heartless. the nobody. kingdom hearts

ndp

2006-08-10T03:03:00.000+08:00

whee~ natiOnal day. hahhas. intended to watCh firewOrk but spent tOo muCh time eating. watChed my sUper ex girlfriend. thats so cOol. lmao. if i had that kinda power...whoa.. a shark will fly thru the windOw. nah.. pigs will climb trees.. =) aniwaes, singapore river is super duper niCe..

the fountain of wealth was so beautiful...dunno i tink there's a celebration cos there's alot of lights at the fountain(oops forgot its national day!)...but i dint get to take the picture at a perfect angle cos somebody was rushing for tOilet...lols! =x not me.

hmm yeah ate at bk...and hmm the last train left without us ='( so had to take a cab.. reached home quite late. oh yah. saw mr ong at suntec. hahhas. well i wouldnt say much. now its 3 am and im blogging. what crap. suddenly.. feel so sleepy.

full moon!

2006-08-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

watchin my brother trying to complete the kingdom hearts.. i wanna buy the guidebook...its like 29 bucks... but its well worth it. bloody hell.. now he blaming me for blogging.. diao.

i wanna buy new spectacle lehh.like for fun lahh.. lol. i tried on this spects at the optics and i find it cute. lol. its yellow! i dont get it.. all the pics become so freaking dull on the blog... hahahs. nevermind.

just now went to jw get back my spects le. repaired. =) whee-hehehe. oh yeah. the moment i stepped out of the house, the moon catches my eye.. is it true that the moon symbolises lonlinesS? its full moon.. i just feel that everytime i look at the moon its like so so..so..erm dunno what to say. nevermind.

by the way, lol, pinkie grow fat le. wahhahas.

speech day

2006-08-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

wee~ hahahs. must say big big thank you to everyone who show concern for me wor~ =) hahahs. almost got kicked out from the emecee post. -.-" but i dint do quite well at the end of the day...... well at least i get to learn alot from it. first time experience. lol. clarence made me laugh like hell the night before the speech day... " what if ira goes berserk on stage? " oh my god. it was insane. hahhas. as usual lah. our crappy talk. we can talk RUBBISH most of the time. lol. like what if one day fast food outlets started selling human flesh as burger patties. and fingers as fries.... errgh. oh and ronald's sms that night made me feel alot more better de. gave me the boost of confidence. =) thank you hor ronald =) oh yah. just now aft school. i say byebye to ronald cos the bus arrive le. then i stand at the bus stop, the bus left without me. oh mi gosh...so paiisehh lohhs. =X . the next bus came very late. haiyO. im starting to wonder, am i that small that people can just look past without noticing me... oh yah speaking of that, i gained weight lehh! =) whee~ hahahs.

today quite suay lah actuali. my mum put my water bottle into my bag. i did not cover the top properly. then
i walk walk at the void deck suddenly i felt water on my leg.oh my god. dont think wrongly. the water practically leak out of the water bottle and flooded my bag...my bag wasnt waterproof. water seeps out of cos. oh dear. paiseh. PATHETIC. then i got home aroud 1+ ...quite late cos i asked mr ong help me with emaths...i reached home got gastric de. i knocked the door. nobody opened. i guess my mum slept. i called her hp. as usual, wasnt answered. i knock...like hell i knock. my fingers are fragile ok..then the wood of the door so thick.....my fingers all turn red! i left the key in the bedroOm! i called my brother. as usual. he continued slleping and ignore my call as what i always do to my friends....mummy reached home i put sour sour face lohh... i waited 15 mins...with that stOopit gastric..haiyo. i reached home i turn on the radio so cannot hear what she nag =X my gastric got so bad that i puke. but u cant puke on an empty stomach... i had to take the medication...wait for her finish cooking. i fel asleep. errgh. i woke up 1o mins later, i call her (although we're under one roof...lazy to go down the stairs....) ask her what she cook. then i sleep again. so technically, i skiipedd my meal. very sad lehh.. i wann put on weight one lehh..
because of such 'catastrophe' i did not get to go out today. haiis! ...well at least i catch up on my sleep.

sentosa. eye injury.

2006-08-07T16:12:00.000+08:00

hmm today my spects got broken during pe lesson. lol. the mini tennis ball hit my eye. no big injury though. i tahan. although painful, lol im awaes trying to act brave. but really it wasnt that awful. just some tiny-weeny cut on my eyelid. ms wong and mr cheong accompanied me to the nearby clinic. the gp referred me to NUH to make sure that there were no tiny fragments of glass in my eyes. clarence was like showing concern. he help me bring my bag to GO and keep reminding me not to scratch my eye. thanks clarence =) it realli made me feel better. oh and ms wong is so helpful. big big thanks to ms wong =) i feel bad cos she missed her lessons. she accompanied me at the a&e ward till my mummy arrive. reuben called me like 8 times. lol. i couldnt hear cos my hp was silent. basically im very worried bout tomorrow. i wanna be the emcee...haiis.. i hope things turn out right.

by the way, my brother bought me the original kingdom hearts two. cost him $80 or $85 ...not sure.. forget le... super shiok. the quality was unimaginable. the colour contrast was like soo intense..its nice.AWESOME.

once again, happy birthday clarence! 6TH AUGUST . hahahs. birthday boy spent his birthday at sentosa. woOts. hahahs. we see the sun set and the moon rise! (= the mineral water at sentosa super expensive. lol. ate cheng tng with edwin. $1.70 lohh.. my house nearby sell only $1.... the whole trip was really memorable. the sunset was beautiful... should go there again sometime. lol. joyz obsessed with pigs and paints XD ..hahhas. reali enjoyed the trip. the orchard trip wasnt bad either. there's six of us- hongjie, joyce, george, ariel, clarence and me. we went to ceneleisure 9th floor play xbox. ate at bk, went heeren. but very funny cos i was waving bye to ariel at mrt station then hongjie and george went down the escalator as well. i dint know they were leaving so early! i thot hongjie wouls come along to sentosa. lol. in the end oni 4 ppl went sentosa.

sentosa=))

lol. royston's shorts =X

yupx aniways, i sometimes wonder what life may bring in the future. i know alot of stuff will be going on when im 19. im gonna meet a long lost friend. lol. cant wait. but im scared that something bad may happen to my other friend...im worried.but that ll be another 4 years.. i hope everything will turn out fine.

someone told me that "the feeling of being in love is lousy. but the feeling of falling in love is beautiful."
isit a must to forget?
isit a sin to remember?
isit necessary to pretend?
is there a need to let go?

mt lesson

2006-08-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

lols. now malay lesson and im blogging =) . supposed to be doin powerpoint. oOps. hope ms sarinah wont EVER find my blog. laughs.. reuben nv come so mt lesson is worse than ever.. -.-" will be having amaths test aft recess.. hmm wonder what i will be eating for recess...aiya! i nv bring chocolate..if not i can eat while on the way back to class frm mt class..sad.

haiis..maybe some things are meant to be let go of...maybe i shouldnt hold on any longer.. show me the way.. prove me wrong...i cnt bear to let go of it.. there's still that tiny weeny bit of light still glowing. dont put off the light. im scared that it will not glow much longer cos it hurts alot. why cant he hear what my heart wants to say...?

31.07.o6

2006-07-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

hmm today was rushing home to meet mummy. lols. i forgot we need to go to jw st 91 and then go clementi change my KH2 cd and the grand theft auto cd. =) wee. can play KH2! oh yeah tmr is amaths matrices test(must improve!) so prolly cant play kh 2 today.SAD.

oh hey BAD NEWS. the emcee script for speech day increased by two PAGES (lol. there's such things as pages. wendy, no need to check dictionary =X hahahs. kidding wors. that time very funny) ...Oops drifted off the topic. yeah, which means hafta memorise more lines. yes yes. my poor brain is gonna explode. its funny how just 1% of my brain can memorise so much...amaths, physics formulas which i dont quite understand... the script...that someone... =X SHUT UP IRA. oh yes, bad news (part II) : i might be changing the 'dress code' for speech day... might be wearing something more covered...eww.. yeah, most prolly the kebaya. errgh.. the dread. NO MORE CHEONGSAM FOR ME. boo hoo. hahhas. sorry hongjie, hahahs, u cant put my pic on class blog. lala-la-la XD . oh yah...speaking of speech day... i still cant pronounce edwin's name properly...errgh.. i dont want him to flare up again. lol. i get blur at times which i shouldnt. but truth is, i really do not know how to pronounce. i forgot. there's so many names and subjects. lol.. i tend to read the wrong lines. ---read between the lines. wrong name combined with wrong subject. i must focus. FOCUS. cannot make mistake. not for my sake, but for the prize winner's sake. hee. wish me luck..

errgh im so FULL. ate chicken rice. that chicken rice stall the guy force me buy mahhs. haiyo. its not realli as nice as the stall at banquet jw. lol. cos that person that prepare the meal at the banquet is quite shuai. reminds me of slyvester sim. but not my cup of tea lahh..lol. age gap too far. LOL! omg im insane. oh sheesh. i wanted to buy ice horlicks dinosaur at the shop near hyss( ronald say horlicks no good for health? really mehh?? i seem to get healthier everyday XD ). i ordered. then the person made milo dinosaur instead. haiyo. that aunty always disappoint me. last few days, when i went with reuben and hj, she told me ice horlicks dinosaur NOT AVAILABLE. now she gave me the wrong order. SAD. so to satisfy myself, i went to clementi and bought horlicks godzilla instead. lol. with the whipped cream and ice cream and horlicks powder. yumm.. btw, i wonder why they gv stupid names for horlicks...... my mum bought mocha ice. whoa. two people drinks can cost till a whopping 6 bucks..damn.. i do lavish my money. spoilt little brat.

all those crap

2006-07-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

29.o7.o6
today seemed alright. i played KH2 like 5 hours. addicted. then when reached mulan's stage, it got jammed. it was ok at the beast's castle and hollow bastien...errgh.. no i cant continue. yeah . sux big time. then went to 399 with alex and sebast go eat chen tng...reached home ard 1o.30. they claimed it was a chore to send me home..hahahs. they take dunno what stupid picture then they claimed got ghost. RUBBISH. i watched SAW2. whoa its damn gruesome. esp the part whr the guy used the knife and poke his eye and the spiked smashed through his face...ytd i watched final destination 3, i fell asleep at the ending. i was too sleepy.

aniways my bestfriend is angry with me agaiin. dont know why. not very sure. he said he dont know me anymore. haiyo. i got this attitude of annoying ppl who gets easily annoyed. i do that to my brother at home and i do that to my bestfriend at school. =) . im not sure...why did things turn out this way? not that i want it to. its just kaboom and an argument sparked. both at fault i must say . it wont be fair if its all-my-fault-and-not-his. and its also not fair if its all-his-fault-and-not-mine. but why? omg. so confusing. can i just sit and wait? i know things will turn out fine.. will one lahh..

aiya. more and more ppl reading my blog. disastrous. its suppose to be personal. omg. so paiisehh.. then all my heartfelt words can be heard...gosh..

i hope life can turn out to be for the better..

crazy me

2006-07-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

im bored and i dont really know what to write about. i just know that the chocolate edwin gave me was very very sweet and mouthwatering. i was like- WOW. it melts in the mouth. i tOok two =) its really nice. anyways, today i helped with the folding of napkins for the hk dinner..and went to mama shop with charmaine and qian to eat maggi. we went to disturb those red cross members. i dont know why but somehow i miss the drills =) this year's red cross seems awesome. oh yah, reuben and steven caught the small snake. reuben tried to scare me with it. too bad, i love snakes. i wanted to keep a water snake before but mummy dont allow. hey im a life science student, how can i fear snake?? i touched the tail of the snake. i remember last time when i was held back by mr lau for 'interrogations' , the school cleaner (or whoever...) was holding a baby snake in his hand. so cute! i touched the snake lohh.. snakes are not suppose to be cute but they should defintely be appreciated because from my point of view, i feel that snakes are unique and facinating creatures. enough about those crappy stuff. oh yah, today life science do apple juice. by the way, i noticed that i type alot of 'oh yah' on my blog. oh yah back to life science topic again. we had to cut up apples. miao miao, jin hui and me cut the apple. then put into beaker and blend it. then we had to add pectinase( found naturally in papayas). somewhat like that. but my results weren't that accurate cause i dint take my readings properly. yea so basically thats my day for today.

oh i decided to decide(oh my. what the hell happened to my english??) who are those hot celebs and footballers and wrestlers...yeah . those that make you have the 'inspiration' and need to watch tv.. oh and just to let you people know, im really bored thats why im doing this. its not as if i turned insane...

#1 - cristiano ronldo. portugal football player =)

#2 - john cena- raw wrestler. =) he's very hot

#3 - ashton kutcher - actor of alot like love, just married, punk'd

#1 -paris hilton. she's filthy rich.

#2 - eva longoria - desperate housewives

#3- sophia bush - act in one tree hill. aka brooke.

2006-07-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

haiis..Last night, abt 11pm lahhs..alex and sebast come over my house. lol. alex wann talk to my mum..we talk talk..as usual. ate marshmellow( alex kept saying mashed potato!) yeah..its been a long time since the 3 of us get together and had a good chat. we spill out all the problems, obviously both of them know abt my problem. cos everytime ask sebast to buy me cheng tng then chit chat and i say my problems....even though he's not a good confidante.... alex was like telling me to SOLVE the problem .. but he also mentioned that what i was doing is actually running away from reality and because of that, i cant let go.. but how do you solve it when the other party isnt willing to solve things? he says im stupid. yeah. for giving up on that guy. then he say maybe he's not my mr right, or maybe we can solve things and sort it out.. dunno lehh... haiis things seem fine nowadays. i still miss him every now and then... he's running. running from all this mess. why must i stay and untangle it to make things work out. i said i wanna run too.. then alex say "if u run, he run. u might as well chase him" ..i m not sure..like i can understand my language. lol. arrgh ... forget it.. i'll keep the 'special one' in my heart ...

-ohh sean online=) aiya actually i wanted to play KH2..but now im stuck to the computer. i dunn wanna be roxas! i want sora! oh my god. its true what aik song said, roxas is boring. lol. agreed. oh yea ...i havent do my amaths =( oh and one on one composition coaching by mr amran..hmm not bad. my malay is getting worse. far worse than i can imagine. i cant form a perfect sentence anymore..

oh yeah, back to the story whr my friends come my house...my brother was at home. obviously he wasnt happy. he yelled. i felt like crying. its like they rarely come my house anyway... oh my. and i answered him back. he went straight to his room and banged the door. all of us shocked. sebast gave up dinner. oni me and alex eat. he claimed that my mum cooks gd macroni soup so he wann wat my mum's cooking again.. i felt bad lehh.. then my mum didnt cook much..lol.. fish, fishball and spinach. lol..finished dinner by midnight..now i still feel bad on both sides... shit.

2006-07-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

EXHAUSTED. oh dear me. my poor feet! i have to get on stage and stand continuously for like 4 hrs....can you imagine? in that tight cheongsam. plus the tired feet...i was dreading my feet wearing those high heels...i couldnt feel my leg anymore.the heat...i was perspiring... and i mentioned hongjie's prize wrongly...sorry! oh ... to add more, a few people went up to the backstage and told me the mistakes i made. like their tone wasnt that polite... and my friends were there...i hope george dint hear it but i know tyty was beside me. then worse of all, they bombard me when fikri had left. so i was alone to face the music. damn. i was tired, exhausted, lethargic. pathetically, i was totally stressed out. i feel like my brain would explode. i read the wrong lines for the first rehearsal...after all the stress, they 'attacked' me. like im tired, and not say i had alot of experiences in being emcee..i've been on stage a few times but im still anxious and nervous...i guess its only normal ( i hope) then they do this to me...firstly, its quite rude when they just blurted out some unnecessary comments. secondly, its embarrassing..i know i make a lot of mistakes and im working hard to improve on it. realli. i dont wish to announce wrongly on the real day. i WONT. especially for hong jie's case because he's my classmate. lols. but please, take into consideration that im doing my very best... and its not that i want to pronounce it wrongly, deliberately. i understand it may get irritating at times...but please, im a human afterall. ronald and jia sheng asked who those ppl are but i'd rather not tell..

i have learnt to love AMATHS! =)

alot of things going on recently...very stressed! HAIIS.

hectic...

2006-07-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

STRESSED!! oh my god. oh my god. i have to go up on stage and be the emcee for the national day cum speech and prize giving ceremony. this sucks big time. i kinda anticipated it actuali. it is fun afterall...(F is for friends who do stuff together. U is for u and me. N is for anywhere and anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea! ) hhahahs. yeah..somehow being on stage is something which i enjoy(sheesh...) but the anticipation kinda blew off when nervousness comes in. esp when mrs pan looks me in the eye. its making me nervous. NERVOUS BREAKDOWN! oh and we have a lot of homework. quite little to be precise lol. im just exagerrating. just that i've been very busy lately and havent been taking meals in regular basis. my 'timetable' is jumbled. i dont even have time to nap. yeah. and clarence does not want to talk to me anymore. like what the FUCK. lols. i dont even know what happened. hmmm maybe he's changed after finding joy in his life ...if you know what i mean. oh well, couldn't care less. he act as though he dont care esp when he says he's gona ditch me and reuben . i should be the one angry. looks like im not the petty one here. whatever it is, im not gonna solve this. i've got too many things on my mind right now = lovesiick. AMATHS. studies. LOVE. PROBLEMS. hectic lifestyle.and i need more SLEEP!!! yeah , so basically i cant afford to spend time brooding over small -little- tiny- incy wincy - minute matters. hopefully he will come and realise his mistake. i will nv ditch my friends over someone i like. even though i used to be in love, (yeah i admit i ditch my friends...) but i did it the (as wat i call) 'politics style'. where you do things behind their backs and not make them realise that u ditch them . its much lesser hurtful that way rather then telling them straight to the face that u gonna ditch them.. if he dont gv a shit then what can i do? beg for his return? heh~ this is a test to prove how much he appreaciate friendship. he'd rather ditch friends of 3 and 5 yrs over a girl who he just met(who he claims is more worthy i suppose?). fine. so be it. in life, we have to make decisions. if he chose that way, then what can i do? i'll just sit here and feel sorry for him. pity him for this OBVIOUS MISTAKE. im pissed. very pissed. he dint reply when i talked to him. why do guys always chicken out....oh gosh...when a problem crops out, they'd shut their freaking mouths. why cant they just spill it out and say what they're unhappy about. wouldnt it make our lives much easier and satisfying???? yah yah. whatever. go your own way.. when u notice the WRONGS you've done, make sure you come talk to me. let you have the time of your life first.

anyway, i hafta wear the cheongsam and i just cant find the perfect shoes......i cant waiit for weekends..wanna go town . but im kinda sick of shopping. singapore is pretty small.. i can remember all the shops in every shopping mall. its like COUNTable. been there done that. nothing much to live here in singapore. i remembered what sean told me =) said he'd bring me out of singapore and go travel.. when im 19. then we'll go dancing. omg. hahhas. i miss him so much! (ps dont get the wrong idea. he's a pri sch friend who moved to america...)

so much happenings. life's complicated....i wake up everyday wondering what tomorrow brings.

.....................pinkie miss xiao mi =(

brokenned smile

2006-07-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

haiis. i havnt eat. hungry. lols. im wondering...can life be better for me? am i suppose to live a lie everyday? haiis. im actuali very very sad. nobody knows. cos i pretend to be alright. i act as though everything's fine. truth is, its not. im just a girl who is fragile deep down but act as though im strong on the outside..cos i dont want ppl to see the weak side of me. im not the sort who'll sit in one corner and cry. i hate crying in public. and i hate crying by myself. it makes me feel pathetic. im not weird. lols. dont get me wrong. its just that im not quite contented with what i got. esp for the fact that when i got something i let it go.. facing up to reality's tough but i gotta admit my faults. its funny because everyday, i'd come home and talk to my mum. she's the only one who knows everything. basically, she'll nag at times but at least i can trust her. i dont quite trust ppl around me, honestly. i just cant. sometimes, even the darkest secret i keep, i will one day break it out and tell my mum. i've lived like 15 years of my life and i just woke up today and realised how much i've learnt and how difficult life can be. wow. amazing. but for a person like me, i dont know why, but somehow, its easier to think of the sad part of your life than to think of the happy ones. basically happiness are usually memories. memories= remember- those- days= makes u sad. lol.

i just cant seem to forget whats in the past. if i can, i realli wanna turn back time and not pass that letter...REGRETS. but sebastian(my pri school friend) once told me that if we can all turn back time, there wont be such things like regrets in the dictionary. point taken... but how..? i dont wann to keep holding on to fat hope. i reali miss those days. i want things to go back as they were. my god brother made it sound as though it was ALL my fault. he was like saying " if you love him so much then why did you break with him"...was it realli my fault... haiis. does it matter whose fault?

seeing him with other girls is kinda sickening cos its huting me. but i just have to swallow. swallow it all till i get CHOKED. how come people around me seems to be falling in love? my bestfriend's in love. more and more ppl in love. i forgot what isit like being in love. i forgot whats the feeling of intimacy. i forgot everything. im not sure why, but its pretty much a pain in the ass when ppl act gloomy in front of me becos they'd been hurt by love. then what bout me? i suffer in silence. lol.. not say suffer. not as though its killing me. im jus sad and disappointed .

now we're just like strangers. looking into the mirror, seeing the reflection..looking at memories. i just want things to go back as they used to be -US together... its the 2nd time my heart got hurt this badly. i realli miss holding his hand. walking in the moonlight. i miss playing with mimosa. i miss us being together. i miss us spening night out till 11pm. i miss being with him. but im realli lost right now. i cant do anything, can i? like just walk aimlessly...

i choose to hold on quietly. i told ppl i let go. but i choose to stay. i just wont move. i'll just stay and waiit for the day to come.

woW!

2006-07-24T17:29:00.000+08:00

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